As a person interested in BDSM, have you ever experienced any form of unwanted abuse from a friend/family member/partner?

Vaginas Vaginas
I have experienced all of the above forms of abuse but I'm very vanilla when it comes to bdsm
07/28/2012
geekkink geekkink
Yep All from my mother, but I highly doubt it's why I am a Dom.
07/31/2012
Bittenflame Bittenflame
Ive experienced the sexual abuse side. Im not sure if it made a difference in what I prefer during my partner and I's love making though.
07/31/2012
remember.me remember.me
Yes, all of the above when I was a child, plus raped once as a young adult. I don't believe BDSM is only a result of the abuse, but it is definitely a factor.
10/25/2012
Katzer Katzer
Never.
10/25/2012
novanilla novanilla
I think I always was interested in bdsm, but after being sexually and emotionally abused there was a really strong desire to reclaim that sexuality, so with my current partner, I'm incredibly submissive in a very healthy and consensual relationship as a way to heal, and it has worked incredibly well and I trust my partner very much. However, I was interested in it before a lot of negative things happened to me so it was more just a catalyst to escalate my interest, not to begin it, and also just another reason to indulge.
10/25/2012
IvyFayette IvyFayette
I've experienced it all. I think it made me more submissive and fear being dominate. I don't think my abuse is the reason I became interested in bsdm but it does account for the things I will and will not do.
01/02/2013
higs higs
Never, I have a hard time believing there is a link to the two. It is for sexual pleasure after all, really hard to link that with abuse.
01/02/2013
fizzygato fizzygato
Yeah, physical and mental and emotional, I guess.

(Don't remember if mental/ emotional were broken into two on the voting poll?)

I don't consider what I do in bdsm to be abuse
01/07/2013
Cyybergod Cyybergod
Yes. A friend knew I was into submission, and then blamed me when I called him out for sexual assault, implying that it's what I had wanted all along.

No, pal, seeing how we never had a sexual relationship before then (purposefully!) it was definitely not what I wanted.
01/07/2013
unicorn64 unicorn64
I've experienced several forms of sexual abuse over my life. My first experience was at 3 years old. I remember I got lost in a cornfield next to the house we were renting and the man who found me, cut down some cornstalks and made a bed. He laid me down on it and pulled my pants down and played with my pee pee and then even licked and sucked me. I felt like I had to pee and told him. He said go ahead and then it seemed to me he drank it. Afterward he told me it was between us and a secret. It felt good to me and so I never said anything. Then it happened again at 4,5,6,7, and 8 with neighbors and friends of my dad. At 5 my dad did about the same thing to me only instead of licking and sucking he kept trying to push his finger in me. He was in an auto accident and I was the one who had to massage his back. He would continue to do that to me with his fingers and finally when I was 14 he got his finger in me. Then it felt like two at which time he made a statement that next time it would be the real thing as he was holding his dick. I began an agenda to avoid him and refused to massage his back any longer. I got into an argument with mom because of it and told her why but she said I was lying. It was not until I was 18 til she finally admitted she knew. She warned me to stay away if I could because he had even bragged to her that he was going to impregnate me so that my baby could replace my little brother who had died in a fire 10 years ago.

At 19 I was getting off work at midnight one night and had my car stall out on me. A car with 4 guys in it stopped and two of them jumped out and grabbed me and pulled me into their car. They then proceeded to rape me. The first hurt real bad because I was dry then after he came the others went in real easy. The 4th guy penetrated me and I guess my body had been excited enough to cause me to squirt. To me it felt like I had peed. He said the bitch peed in my car and pulled out of me. They threw me out of their car and drove on. It turned out that the owner of the car was a cops kid and they didn't believe that I had been raped even though I was bruised pretty bad. So nothing ever came of it.

I think that is why I still can't orgasm and also why I am curious about bdsm. I think if I am forced I might orgasm. Don't know for sure but it feels like it when I read bdsm stories.

I think I also experienced mental and emotional abuse. My dad and my grandmother told me my whole life how fat I was. No one was ever going to want me and I would not even get a good job. I was not normal and it wasn't until recently I don't feel like my body has anything wrong with it.

For many years I had dreams that the men who were playing with my pee pee also cut my nipples and stabbed me with the knife. I almost forgot about those nightmares.
07/01/2013
MornaStar MornaStar
I have experienced emotional abuse and I am still going through it right now. It's not so much of a fear of them hurting me more, but a fear of being alone and losing what once was a great friendship. I don't think this abuse has anything to do with me like BDSM, strictly because I have enjoyed aspects of BDSM since I was a child, I just didn't realize it until I put a name to it. I didn't know what I was doing and i didn't know why it felt good, I just did it.
07/02/2013
spineyogurt spineyogurt
No I dont think so
07/02/2013
LittleBun91 LittleBun91
None
07/10/2013
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