It has been off and on for me and I finally was able to try anal again but because it isn't very often I haven't gotten used to how to prepare for it. I remember a while ago I did try with and without an enema (anal douche) before hand and I haven't had any issues in the past. But I don't want to sound gross or anything, however recently my last attempt wasn't without incident. I'm wondering if I need to do several enema's before hand and wait a little while? I tried to flush my system after using the bathroom to try and make myself extra clean with the enema (anal douche). I don't know if because it was a bulb anal douche and not a bag enema did I not flush or clean myself properly? and was that the reason for my messiness which was so embarrassing that I wanted to die. We had to stop and clean up and try again but it was still messy. So now I wonder if I should even try the anal douche before hand or just do it after to clean/flush? I feel horrible from this experience but I love anal and don't want this to happen again. tips? help?