I am an almost 40 year old virgin. I haven’t really had any relationships with men, and I have a feeling it stems from being molested when I was a pre-pubescent and some supreme body issues.
A few years ago I bought the first of my toys from this site (a patchy Paul, a ripple large, tantus slim), and I did use these for a little while with no success. I did end up throwing some of these away, but I kept the Patchy Paul (it cost too much to throw away). I have recently begun the process of “taking matters into my own hands,” again. I started using the Patchy Paul again, and recently bought the VAMP. Which to be honest was WAY bigger than I thought it would be. I have only tried it once so far, and although I was able to insert it (lots of astroglide), it did have some blood on the tip (IS THIS NORMAL?)
I am really trying to get over my issues with my body, sex, and men. But I am finding it really hard. Masturbation is something I never really understood, and feel like I am not doing it “right.” I don’t even know why I writing about this now. Are there any toys out there that you recommend? Techniques? Web-Sites (although I have to say that curiosity got the best of me and I went to youporn)?