Vagina Confessions

Owl Identified Owl Identified
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Originally posted by LusciousLollypop
This thread is too amazing. I feel like I'm not alone

I want to discuss how much it bothers me and that it is literally a phobia of mine to have a man lick and tease my vagina with his mouth. When I was 15, some guy I was dating (whom I ... More
I've (fortunately) never had someone say that to me before regarding scent, but I know quite a few women that have had a similar experience. I'm really sorry that was your first experience with oral. Even without such a traumatic first time, it still took me a LONG time to be able to get off reliably through oral. Not everyone enjoys it, and some people take a while learning what they need to get off through oral if they do enjoy it.

I was also more of a giver for a long time, mostly because I didn't really know how to explain what exactly I needed, and also because I didn't want to inconvenience my partner. I guess part of the trouble is that I am extremely empathetic and believe that my partners deserve total dignity, respect, attention, and as much effort as needed for them to enjoy their experience - whether orgasm is the result or not. But, I fail to understand that I deserve that as well. And probably as a result of low self esteem, I don't feel comfortable asking for the same in return even though I want it. My current partner is the first person I ever felt comfortable saying "this isn't working, can we try again a new way?" instead of just giving up on my own pleasure when it wasn't going to happen.

Also, TONS of women need to stimulate their clitorises during intercourse! Some with a vibrator, some with a Hitachi! Studies say that the MAJORITY of women need clitoral stimulation in addition to G-spot stimulation, or that the clitoral stimulation alone is all that is required. Any man (or woman) that will not accommodate this very simple need is just not worth your time. Easier said than done, I know. Plus, when you're bar hopping looking for someone to take home, it's not like the people that pay attention to your needs wears signs or anything. All I can say is I've started telling people what I like from the get go. Sometimes, even before we ever go back to anyone's place. You can wrap it up in some dirty talk if you want; this makes it less awkward. Lean over, whisper in their ear "have you ever [done that thing you really love] to a woman lately?" or "how would you like to [do whatever you enjoy best] to me tonight?"

You should try it! Just once, bring a vibrator into it if you like - you can sell your lover on the idea by pitching it as a "kinky" or new element to add to love making. And I love your tummy, for the record
03/10/2012
NurseKitty NurseKitty
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Originally posted by Jul!a
I've only had a handful of orgasms that didn't require clitoral stimulation, and I hate that vaginal penetration alone doesn't seem to do anything. Yes it feels good, but it would take me forever and ever and ever to finish without also ... More
I'm much the same. While I love the feeling of penetration it is REALLY hard for me to orgasm without clitoral stimulation. I also have a hard time with dryness, so I usually need some sort of lube on hand which can be really annoying when you just want to be spontaneous. Nope I need to go digging for that stupid bottle!
03/10/2012
LusciousLollypop LusciousLollypop
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Originally posted by Owl Identified
I've (fortunately) never had someone say that to me before regarding scent, but I know quite a few women that have had a similar experience. I'm really sorry that was your first experience with oral. Even without such a traumatic first time, ... More
You just made me feel so much better, seriously. I can't tell you how much I wanna hug you right now, Lol! Thank you for all of that. Really, it helped me so much.
03/10/2012
hyacinthgirl hyacinthgirl
I afraid that I taste and smell bad. I'm not a vaginal connoisseur, so I have no idea what other women taste and smell like, but my ex always acted like it was some horrible chore to go down on me that I had to beg him to do. Even though the guy I'm with now does it with no complaints, he still has to be asked. Considering how much oral I perform on him without being asked, it really doesn't seem fair.

This may sound like a weird complaint, but I don't always like how sensitive I am. I'm hyper-orgasmic, and can have orgasms from having almost any part of my body stimulated, or even from being talked to in a certain tone. I have hair-trigger ASMR, which can also give me orgasms besides the nicely head-tinglies. It just... seems like it would be nice to have some work involved. It may just be because my ex was a shithead, but after he discovered my physical limits, he just lost interest. No foreplay, no talking, no seduction, nothing, because I "didn't need it". That has yet to happen with either of my guys, I'm scared of it happening again. That they'll just start waiting for me to get them hard and get them off, with my orgasms being incidental. Towards the end, my ex was treating them like they were annoying.
03/11/2012
kitty377 kitty377
Confession: I feel that my labia minora is too dark and I wish it was pinker
03/11/2012
LusciousLollypop LusciousLollypop
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Originally posted by hyacinthgirl
I afraid that I taste and smell bad. I'm not a vaginal connoisseur, so I have no idea what other women taste and smell like, but my ex always acted like it was some horrible chore to go down on me that I had to beg him to do. Even though the guy ... More
I am afraid of that too. I taste and smell myself when I'm horny just to see for myself and I think I taste and smell good. Maybe you should try that? See if you taste/smell good yourself. Yeah, my ex thought it was a horrible chore too, that is why he only did it once. If it doesn't seem fair to you, bring it up. Lightly, of course. Be like.. "I wish you would go down on me more, maybe more spontaneous.. it is only fair you know? -wink-" in a really sexy way.

I have actually known someone, a friend in college, that had orgasms SUPER easily.. like if her clothes hit just hit while walking. She said she was super annoyed with it but she was very happy with it unless there were too many in the day (we are talking like twice an hour or more) then it started to hurt. I cannot believe your ex said that to you! He has no right. I am happy he is your ex, I'm sorry. That is just awful. No foreplay, no seduction.. because you didn't need it?! He obviously needs to work on himself if he can say that to you. You are a much better person without him. You are above him, believe me.

I don't think your current boyfriend would ever say he anything the previous guys said to you. Just talk to him about it, be totally open, and IF he is a good guy, he will take patience and kindness from it. Honesty of always the best thing, as well as communication in relationships.

You sound like an amazing girl. You are NOT weird and nothing is wrong with you.

xoxo
03/11/2012
wildorchid wildorchid
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Originally posted by hyacinthgirl
I afraid that I taste and smell bad. I'm not a vaginal connoisseur, so I have no idea what other women taste and smell like, but my ex always acted like it was some horrible chore to go down on me that I had to beg him to do. Even though the guy ... More
Well that's ridiculous. Just because you're hyper sensitive does not mean you do not have needs that need to be fulfilled!

As far as your guy goes, talk to him about it. No body can read minds and if it is something that bothers you, it should make you feel better to talk about it. It doesn't seem fair though. If your guys cares about you though, he will listen and understand. Maybe you'll learn why he doesn't do it unless you ask. It could just be a communication issue.

And you don't smell or taste bad, your natural scent and smell may just not gel with everyone and that is not your fault. I agree with luscious lollipop, try tasting and smelling yourself. Also, keep in mind that your scent and taste will change with your menstrual cycle. You may want to monitor that for the sake of you and your guy. Maybe you can compromise on a time that makes you both more comfortable?

Trust us, there's nothing wrong with you, you're fine and beautiful. Just communicate with your guy and find out what is going on. It will all work out!
03/12/2012
hyacinthgirl hyacinthgirl
I have smelled and tasted myself, but I have no frame of reference. I don't think I'm disgusting, but I wouldn't go down on me. Then again, I'm not attracted to vaginas, so I really don't know where I fit in.

My guy only demurs when we've had sex recently and I haven't showered, because he hates the latex aftertaste the condoms leave. But I do need to tell him that after our showers, I don't want to ask him for him to do it.

And, I know I'm above my ex, considering he found my orgasmic limits by raping me. But, of course, it wasn't rape because I was having orgasms . He raped me several times, and I had multiple orgasms in each instance, because it's harder for me not to have an orgasm than to have one. So... I had a lot of rage towards my vagina for not drying up or clamping down hard enough to hurt him, like it was somehow my fault, or that I had wanted it because of physical arousal. I can deny myself an orgasm by force of will, but it's painful and takes all of my concentration.

Then again, my sub thinks it's the most awesome thing ever, and my beau thinks it's pretty amazing as well. According to both of them, it makes them feel like the biggest studs who ever lived when they make me cum so much that I can barely move afterwards.
03/12/2012
irishlove irishlove
I'll keep it short, I hate that I can't cum without clit stimulation.

Also, my inner right labia is slightly larger than the left. Not only that but I thought it was weird that my inside labia stick out of the outer. When I started dating my bf and I told him, he said it's so common and he actually doesn't like inner labias that are "normal" and tucked inside the outer labia.
03/12/2012
Deeder Deeder
I see a lot of you on here have issues reaching orgasm in specific ways. I only wish that were my problem. My thing is that I've never had ANY type of orgasm, ever.

I've been with my husband for nearly 5 years, and I absolutely love him more than I could say. He's the only person I've ever "been with" (though he's had his fair share of partners in the past), we have a wonderful son who'll be two in May, a daughter due in June, and I couldn't be any happier than I am. Except for the fact that I just can't seem to get off.

It seems like nothing really works. I've tried relaxing and just not thinking about it, concentrating on it, trying to work it out by myself, household items (battery powered toothbrushes/electric razors/hairbrush handles/body massagers), and toys built for sex play. We've tried PIV, anal, oral, 69, fingerbanging, every position the two of us can physically manage, being tied up, in bed, on the floor, on a couch, in the tub/shower, and even the bathroom sink. Nothing.

A lot of times I even have a hard time telling if there's anything even down there. It makes me feel terrible when I'm on top and I have to ask him repeatedly if it's in, simply because I can't feel it. I have no history of abuse (of any kind), so I have no idea why I have such a hard time.

Every now and then though, it does start to feel okay. It just takes FOREVER (I'm talking close to an hour) and seems that as soon as I start to get a good buzz on I do something stupid to cause my (by then exhausted) husband to drop, whether it's unintentionally saying something funny and making him laugh, or accidentally hitting him in the balls or something.

To make matters worse, the time I believe I came the closest to getting anywhere was forever ruined in my memory because I think it caused me to miscarry our second child, (I had taken a pregnancy test a few weeks before and gotten a positive result; we were both stoked). But after about 45-50 minutes of the only really good sex I've had, I turned the light on to get cleaned up only to find myself and the bedsheets covered in blood. I still had bouts of morning sickness for weeks afterwards, so at first I figured it was just superficial. Then at my OB appointment we found out the worst. While I have the best doctor in the world who couldn't reiterate enough that it wasn't our fault, and sometimes these things just happened, I still live with the guilt that I killed our baby, all because I wanted to get off. It's not easy to live with.

My husband knows about my problem, and couldn't be any more supportive. He was the one who originally talked me into trying out different toys, and has even said he'd go with me to a therapist if that is what it takes. I know it shouldn't bother me that much, but I'm constantly reminded of it, and more and more it's making me depressed. I just can't help but think sometimes that I'm a bad wife for not being able to properly enjoy it, and that he deserves someone who can better appreciate it than me.
03/12/2012
wildorchid wildorchid
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Originally posted by irishlove
I'll keep it short, I hate that I can't cum without clit stimulation.

Also, my inner right labia is slightly larger than the left. Not only that but I thought it was weird that my inside labia stick out of the outer. When I started ... More
Can't help to with the clit thing other than to tell you that you are totally normal. And as far as the labia thing goes: FINALLY, SOMEONE LIKE ME!!!!
03/12/2012
wildorchid wildorchid
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Originally posted by Deeder
I see a lot of you on here have issues reaching orgasm in specific ways. I only wish that were my problem. My thing is that I've never had ANY type of orgasm, ever.

I've been with my husband for nearly 5 years, and I absolutely love ... More
I wish I had better words and advice other than have you talked to your doctor about your level of sensitivity? Your husband sounds wonderful! I wish I knew what to say and I'm so sorry I don't. Again, I wish I could push a button that would enable all women to have their perfect orgasm.
03/12/2012
Jul!a Jul!a
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Originally posted by Deeder
I see a lot of you on here have issues reaching orgasm in specific ways. I only wish that were my problem. My thing is that I've never had ANY type of orgasm, ever.

I've been with my husband for nearly 5 years, and I absolutely love ... More
I don't believe you should feel responsible for your miscarriage. Your doctor is right that sometimes these things just happen. But I know that saying that doesn't necessarily change how you feel. I have never been in that position, and I can't imagine the heartbreak that you must be feeling.

I can however, extend the closest thing to a big bear hug that I can over the internet and tell you that you're not wrong or broken and it's fantastic that your husband is so supportive and doing everything he can to help. That's something I can relate to, because I'm just never in the mood it seems like, and I hate that my husband feels like he's badgering me when if I were "normal" I would just be having lots of sex.

Huge to you, and if you ever want to vent (any of you) my inbox is always open.
03/13/2012
P'Gell P'Gell
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Originally posted by hyacinthgirl
I have smelled and tasted myself, but I have no frame of reference. I don't think I'm disgusting, but I wouldn't go down on me. Then again, I'm not attracted to vaginas, so I really don't know where I fit in.

My guy only ... More
Of course you have rage. No means NO!!!! Orgasm is often a reflex (I used to be hyperorgasmic, so I know) but that doesn't mean you don't need to be played with and brought to the best orgasm possible with love and caring.

I'm glad you got rid of that rapist shithead. You deserve so much better.
03/13/2012
P'Gell P'Gell
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Originally posted by Deeder
I see a lot of you on here have issues reaching orgasm in specific ways. I only wish that were my problem. My thing is that I've never had ANY type of orgasm, ever.

I've been with my husband for nearly 5 years, and I absolutely love ... More
Aw, honey. You've had a rough time.

I know you've heard it before, but good sex did NOT cause the miscarriage. I can guarantee it. (I'm a nurse and a sexual woman, I know these things. )

Have you seen the GYN about the genital anesthesia (because that's what it sounds like to me.) It could be physical, or it could have been aggravated because you felt bad about the miscarriage, but seeing a doctor GYN or even a neurologist) who will help you may help.

I hope you can get to the issue and feel better. I've had miscarriages, so I know, you always look at what you did immediately before, but it is virtually impossible to cause your own miscarriage. If it was, there would be no need for birth control or abortion clinics, women would just do it themselves.

Write your fears about your miscarriage and your orgasms on slips of paper, then burn then in an open fire while praying or thinking about the issue and your own pureness. This is how I rid myself of terrible fears of somehow "killing" my baby or dying myself during my planned C Section, near the end of my last pregnancy. I had a Blessing Way, and a midwife friend of mine had me do this, (we used my fireplace, but you can use a fire pit or even a BBQ container) and I felt better almost immediately, and my baby was born early, but healthy and happy.

Then see a doctor about the genital anesthesia.

Good luck and Blessings.
03/13/2012
tiggle biddies tiggle biddies
my boyfriend says that birth control made me less sensitive in bed
03/16/2012
ViVix ViVix
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Originally posted by Owl Identified
So I've been reading some different threads on Edenfantasys in which vagina owners express their anxieties about their bits. They like a certain stimulation too much, not enough, they're too responsive or not enough.

I wanted to start ... More
I personally am super self-conscious about my cervix because not one, but two of my exes didn't know what it was! I feel like I don't orgasm easily enough, and my partners often see this as a kick to their self esteem. Oh, and I'm relatively sure that no matter how old I get, my vagina continues to do weird things I don't understand.
03/27/2012
ghalik ghalik
My clitoris doesn't do much. It never has. I have to have some kind of internal stimulation to orgasm (except below condition). I had my first orgasm when I was 13 and after I found out this wasn't normal I bought my first vibrator thinking that would do it for me... no luck. Clitoral stimulation feels nice, but it just makes me twitch and gets me nowhere near orgasm. I feel like this "special gift" is wasted on me because I'm gay and I know tons of straight women who would love to have my "problem." It also causes me to feel vulnerable and abnormal because I'm supposed to be "impenetrable" because I'm not a femme.

I spontaneously orgasm. I don't have a severe case where just a breeze will make me come... but it's annoying sometimes. It's not fun to have to fight it off in public. It makes me feel like a freak.

I have a little mole on my labia minoris (sp? not actually sure what the singular is). It doesn't bother me too much, but I don't particularly like it.

In the vicinity: I don't like my upper thighs. The lower parts are fine, but the upper parts are just flabby and stretch-marked and look a thousand times better covered up. This makes swimming a pain. I'm a healthy weight and I doubt they'll ever look better. I wish I had my pre-puberty thighs.
03/29/2012
geliebt geliebt
I have tons..
To a lesser extent, I'm a little worried any given partner won't like the way I taste/smell. This hasn't been an issue yet (so far, the opposite actually, which is nice) but I honestly dislike how I taste. Smell, whatever I really don't care, but I definitely wouldn't go down on myself..

Next, I honestly can't orgasm with a partner. I try. It's a chore, it's only happened twice, years ago. My first ex gave me a complex about it too, since even though he COULD get me off, he never wanted to because it was so much work. So that created some serious insecurities on top of everything else...

I also totally hate queefing >.< This isn't a huge issue, but it's so annoying and completely unsexy.
But the orgasm issue is the biggest one. Sucks.
04/09/2012
epiphanyjayne epiphanyjayne
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Originally posted by Tuesday
I think anxiety about how our bodies look is near-universal for women. There's always something that's less than ideal. Even though I'm thin and exercise a lot, I would be nervous to be naked in front of a man for the first time. My ... More
I just wanted to tell you that I have large boobs and I would rather have perky little bumps then these things weighing me down. I think Small breasts are so beautiful .
07/05/2012
epiphanyjayne epiphanyjayne
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Originally posted by MaryExy
I have NEVER had an orgasm with a partner. I think that's one of the main reasons I'm so much more into "giving" during sex. I'm very self-conscious about how much clitoral stimulation I have to have to orgasm; I hate that ... More
I have the same issues with not being able to orgasm when someone else is trying to give oral or even during intercourse. Oral just doesn't do for me no matter how long he goes at it for, no matter how he does it, I just can't get there. Sex no matter how good it feels how ever long we've gone at it for if I don't have clitoral stimulation I can not cum!
I have been with my hubby for over 10 years now, so I found one position that has worked well to get me there with out my own hands or toys. The best one for me is when I'm on my back like missionary but instead I close my legs together and he opens his legs to straddle me and enters from between my closed lips, he doesn't get as deep but I like that it stimulates my vaginal opening plus he is going vertically against my clit rubbing with every penetration.
07/05/2012
epiphanyjayne epiphanyjayne
#1- I hate that it's so easy for guys to cum during sex and I have to touch myself to get off.
#2- I have to take anxiety meds which makes having an Orgasm take longer sometimes a lot longer.
#3- I have a high sexual apatite that gets in the way sometimes, My hubby just can't keep up. Which adds to my frustration level. (I don't blame my hubby, he's really great)
#4- ever since having kids my pussy lips are darker in color.
#5- I don't get off from Oral sex
07/05/2012
bog bog
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Originally posted by Owl Identified
So I've been reading some different threads on Edenfantasys in which vagina owners express their anxieties about their bits. They like a certain stimulation too much, not enough, they're too responsive or not enough.

I wanted to start ... More
Amazing post!

This is possibly triggering, just as a warning, though I'm sure every post on here could trigger someone.

It depresses me how often partners I've had happily and selfishly see sex as a pursuit of their own orgasm. Sometimes, I still feel bad asking people to get me off because we live in this absurd sex-negative culture. I go home unfulfilled, and Mr. Six Orgasms in 24 Hours cracks his knuckles and goes about his day.

If I loved myself, I'd be happy to demand orgasms tit-for-tat. I feel undeserving, like I'm lucky to have someone willing to fuck me. That is bullshit. I am hot. We are all hot. They are lucky to have us!!
12/25/2012
Tuesday Tuesday
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Originally posted by bog
Amazing post!

This is possibly triggering, just as a warning, though I'm sure every post on here could trigger someone.

It depresses me how often partners I've had happily and selfishly see sex as a pursuit of their own orgasm. ... More
If you have to ask, it's much less likely to be good. You need someone who wants you to get off too and is eager to work toward that goal. They're out there. I hope you find one of them.
12/29/2012
MrWill MrWill
I have to do this, because I hate seeing women down on themselves.

You are all BEAUTIFUL. EVERY PART OF YOU. Your individual parts make up you as a whole!


Love yourselves!
12/29/2012
Jennifer87 Jennifer87
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Originally posted by VieuxCarre
I have a confession. I'm horribly ashamed of my body and getting naked in front of my partner is embarrassing. I'm secretly terrified that he'll turn away one day in disgust because I'm fat and I can't seem to do anything to get ... More
I'm a big women too VieuxCarre and I'm afraid to have sex with the lights on or him even see me naked. i'm ashamed of my body but in the end I know its my fault no one elses. then after having 2 kids that doesn't help much cause then there are stretch marks. He says he loves my body. Well, i'm glad he does cause I don't. i'm trying to lose but its not easy for me.
01/03/2013
Hummingbird Hummingbird
I was always ashamed of my body even 5'9" and 145 lbs I was very self-conscious because I was well endowed. Something my elders always like to take note of verbally. As a result I came to believe my body was not beautiful and when dating time came around men always wanted to touch my breasts I was always uncomfortable.

As a result I gained weight and while I've been on many diets never got down to 145 again. It has taken me almost 40 years (I'm 59) and now approx 180 lbs still 5'9" to not dislike my body. The only problem now is because I'm older and have been less sexually active until last year, I don't O as easy during oral. It is only the toys that stimulate my clit enough. As far as vaginal O's, that has never happened during sex and finally at long last I've come to learn not every woman can, so at least I'm not the odd one out.

I'm not a super model or even the pretty neighbor next door, I have a belly and if I don't hold it in I look pregnant. In clothes especially snug ones and now that it is winter with sweaters my body looks bigger still. But at night alone with my partner, he lays out what he prefers to see me in. It's never the ones that hide my bulges but one that displays every single lump. It turns him on for some unknown reason and because it does it turns me on too. O's are still difficult for me even when we're together but not for him and it makes me happy I'm the shape I'm in. He loves it so now I do too!
01/03/2013
lilacviolet lilacviolet
I'm 22 years old, 5'4'' and weight about 320lbs so I'm very fat. I have no self esteem whatsoever, I have never felt pretty not once in my life. I don't believe anyone could be attracted to me. About a year ago I discovered size acceptance and inspirational stuff about loving your body but I still struggle.

Anyway, I'm 320lb while my boyfriend is a twig. Intimacy is not the best because I'm full of insecurities and I feel like an elephant trying to have sex with an impala. And no, my boyfriend isn't even into fat girls. He never compliments my body, he never tells me I'm sexy, I'm always the one begging for intimacy, it's pitiful. When we are about to be intimate, I seem to ruin everything with my weight, insecurities. When he's playing with my nipples, I have NO sensitivities, maybe because it's a mental thing and I feel like I'm so ugly and disgusting, there is nothing arousing about me, not even my ugly small saggy boobs. My boobs are small even though the rest of my body is gigantic. I don't fit in any lingeries so far. I've wasted hard earned $100 worth of Eden points getting myself nice lingeries to help me feel better about myself, but nothing fit. Because I have a huge body and small boobs, it seems lingeries that fit my fat body don't fit my boobs and if it fits my boobs, it won't fit my body. Even if I were to show myself wearing lingerie to my boyfriend, I doubt he would find me attractive.

Anyway, when we are trying to be intimate physically, I don't feel anything on my nipples, just discomfort. I just lie there and I don't feel any pleasure at all. My boyfriend is the total opposite, he's extremely sensitive all over while I'm so numbed. He bought me a vibrator, he probably fantasized that we would have a wild night and I ruined it. I didn't feel anything. Or maybe it wasn't a very good vibrator for me although it was high quality. My clit is sensitive I suppose, I can have quick and multiple orgasms just touching myself for a minute or two but unfortunately my clit orgasms are pathetic and dull, not satisfying.

I'm still a virgin. I bought a very thin dildo (The Slim). I tried a dozen times now to insert it and no matter what I do, I can't insert it further than an inch. I feel like I fail at everything I try. When I tried having sex for the first time with my boyfriend (virgin as well), it was utterly disappointing but I understand since it was our first time trying. The most that frustrated me was my fatness, I felt like I couldn't spread my legs enough, I tried spreading my legs and my legs hurt, I felt like I was going to disjoint my leg. I think it was because of my fat thighs, it was like my thighs were so thick that maybe my boyfriend couldn't even get between me. I'm also frustrated that I fantasize and dream about being the "girl on top" and acting wild and free during sex but my fatness and insecurities make me want to just hide in a hole underground and not be seen by anyone. I'm 320lbs and my boyfriend is a twig of a stick. He fantasizes about "girl on top" and crazy positions that I just can't do with my weight.

I feel like such a failure. No matter what I do I fail at everything. Even buying lingerie to try to help my own self esteem, I fail because nothing fit and I was looking forward the lingerie I got and now I can't ever wear them. One lingerie I was looking forward to getting, when I was finally able to buy it, it was literally the last one in stock and I ended up getting a medium size because the reviews said to only get it by bust size and that as long as it fit your bust, it would drape over your tummy. Okay, so I got the medium because that was my bust size. Yeah, the cup fits but it doesn't fit my ribcage or anything else. The frame was made for small breasted petite women and I'll never be able to wear that lingerie.

I always feel envious when I read girls saying,"My partner LOVES my body! He tells me I'm sexy all the time. I turn him on." my boyfriend never compliments me or says anything like that. It seems he only does it AFTER I get upset and whine about it which doesn't help because then it doesn't feel sincere when he does say it (again, only after I whine about it).

I get frustrated whenever I read the reviews on Eden and read girl's experience about how they wore a lingerie and drove their partner WILD with lust. I feel depressed whenever I read those descriptions because I feel like no matter what I do, nobody not even my own boyfriend will ever feel anything about my body attractive. I also get annoyed and envious when I read reviews describing the wild sex they had with their partners, trying out sex toys and stuff. I have a high sex drive, I want sex, I want A LOT of sex, I want to have a great and wild sex life but I feel like my boyfriend is happy not having sex, period. Whenever I mention that I'm aroused or I mention that I want to be intimate, he just gives me an awkward silent treatment. Not a response I want to get. It kills my self esteem even more. Makes me feel extremely unwanted. (Although in a hopeful note, these things I encounter mostly online when we're physically apart but when we're physically together, it seems to be easier for him to feel aroused with me).

I often argue with him about the lack of intimacy because months can go by and he doesn't support me enough, doesn't support my needs. We're in a long distance relationship which makes intimacy even harder but other couples don't seem to have a problem using webcam and sending photos and things like that so why is it so impossible in our relationship? I feel like it's my fatness that ruins everything, maybe he's just not attracted to me. I want to be intimate with him, even if it's just a chat or webcam or sending photos or whatever but he always acts so uninterested. Yet I'm sure that if a skinny girl walks past him, he'll easily want to f**k her brains out yet with me, it just seems awkward and like the sexual compatibility isn't there. I always feel like it's my fatness and lack of self esteem that's the reason I feel so unfulfilled.
02/21/2013
StarrStacked StarrStacked
I just got my first assignment as an advanced reviewer (a piece of lingerie). I was excited picking it out and requesting it but now that I've gotten it and stared at the model I'm terrified it's going to look awful and my boyfriend is going to laugh at me when I show it to him.

I'm 4'11'' and have DD breasts, since they're so large they are not perky which I always think is a turn off for all men (and myself). Also I'm have a few extra pounds on me and I'm afraid the straps are going to cut into my hips making me look bulgy and gross.
02/21/2013
Edeneve Edeneveef Edeneve Edeneveef
the only thing I've had anxiety about w/ my vag is having my period when he wanted sex anyway.
03/05/2013
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