I generally identify with being pansexual, but I've become to realize that I am incredibly attracted to people who blur gender not just physically but blur societal gender roles in general. In elementary school I had a crush on a guy that everyone else in our class thought was a girl (until I asked him) that same year I was in a dance class with a girl who I had a massive crush on because I thought she was dude (I was about eleven) and when I saw her putting on lipstick I was initially confused but still incredibly attracted to her (first time I realized I attracted to girls). I realized this trend continues today, it seems to be ingrained in me and I can't help but to wonder why. It totally grasps my attention in a way that nothing else does when I see someone whose gender appears undefined. Anyone else relate to this?



