I feel comfortable with my vagina again.

Genderfree Genderfree
I used to literally feel physical pain when someone touched my vagina because I have some tearing in that area. For a long time, I did not feel comfortable with that area at all. However, recently I bought myself a binder and a packer and I feel a lot more comfortable with my body. I cammed a few weeks ago, and hated that everyone wanted to see my "man pussy", but now that I feel like my appearance is outwardly male, I think I've began to feel comfortable with acknowledging that it is there and it can be changed. However, it feels so much better having a toy in my anus, or in both, I have to say. I still have to get off using my minipenis though.

Has anyone ever had a similar experience? I just thought it was so strange, especially hearing about how a lot of FTMs do not feel comfortable putting anything in that area.
12/09/2012
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Ciao. Ciao.
I'm a non-op MtF so perhaps my experience isn't totally analogous, but I think it's completely normal to go through periods of loving/indifference/lo athing directed at your genitals if you are trans.

For me genitals have never been the biggest issue, mine bring me pleasure, and while they do not necessarily match up with my mind's image of my body I generally fall more towards the end of indifference or actually liking my genitals. There are other parts of me that cause more cognitive dissonance, but like I said that also can change from day-to-day/week-to-wee k. Some of it is just how you're able to ride your own emotions and what your support network is like.

I think I'd probably be uncomfortable myself with people fetishizing (because they didn't match up with nmy presentation) my genitals (because they didn't match up with nmy presentation) personally, but that's just me.
12/10/2012
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Originally posted by Genderfree
I used to literally feel physical pain when someone touched my vagina because I have some tearing in that area. For a long time, I did not feel comfortable with that area at all. However, recently I bought myself a binder and a packer and I feel a ... More
I can occasionally be comfortable with it being touched if I'm turned on enough and i'm really comfortable with the person, although most of the time I can't even handle the thought of having a vagina.
12/11/2012
GONE! GONE!
I'm muuuuuch more comfortable with the idea when being wanted by someone who sees me as male, and when using toys with myself.
12/11/2012
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