Are you happy?

I'm mixed. I'm happy and excited, but also a bit nervous. The boyfriend just got back from sea and this'll be my first time hearing from him in a while. Plus, I'm waiting for some lingerie I just ordered and I don't know how it'll fit. =P

Depends on my days and what causes me to be happy. These days that would be meditation and anti-depressants.

I'm off of my anti-depressant/anti-a nxiety meds and birth control pills for about two-three months now. I just got out of a really terrifying abusive BDSM relationship, lost my job due to it, and my mom and stepdad (we are super close) are moving across the country before Christmas, and I'm dealing with chronic pain. PTSD is a real bitch too--the nightmares are crazy.

Ok, bitchfest is over for me, sorry, haha.

HOWEVER, I have some wonderful people in my life, I am proud I got out of the relationship so early on, and I'm making plans for my future and just trying to take care of myself.

So it's mixed. If you'd asked me six weeks ago, I'd say I was the happiest woman alive. Hopefully in another six weeks I will feel that way again.

It made me sad to read that a lot of people are kinda 'eh.' Or as one put it, "going through the motions." I get like that as well and have to stop myself. It's hard. Winter is rough on a lot of people and so are the holidays.

Nope. In fact I've become downright miserable. But I know it's temporary. I ended a relationship with the man I loved, and I did the right thing but it just sucks sucks sucks because he was my best friend so my whole life feels awful. But back in the world not ruled by emotions over a breakup, I have a job I love, good friends, lots of plans, a home of my own, and everything I need and then some extra. I just need some more time I guess

Usually I am.