One is a girl who has been my best friend my entire life. We grew up across the street from one another and have known each other since we were infants in strollers. Last year, she got married to a guy she barely knew. I tried to be supportive, but I couldn't lie to her about how I felt about her rushing into a marriage with someone she barely knew, for all the wrong reasons. (She really wanted to have a baby. Now they're having trouble conceiving.) We've hashed the whole thing out a few times, but I still never hear back from her when I reach out to stay in touch. We live in different states now, so I try to contact her often and keep our friendship alive. She never reciprocates.
The second is a recent problem. She was my first and only close friend in a new city. A couple months ago, we had a falling out because of something that was completely trivial and out of my hands. (She watched my dogs for a weekend while I was away and one of them got sick when he was with her, supposedly ruining her rug, which I could not afford to replace. I apologized, of course, a million times, offered to help clean up, etc. Nothing. She dismissed me. She's ignored my occasional reaching out for the last two months and the other night she unfriended me on Facebook! What in the hell? I could have sworn I graduated high school...I seem to recall a long, boring ceremony with an uncomfortable, ugly-ass cap and gown...This level of immaturity, passive-aggressiveness , and drama is not something I want in my life, but I miss all of the great times we've had together!
And, unfortunately...I have no one else. Compounding the issue is the fact that when I moved to Philadelphia, I didn't know a soul here. It's a year later and I have no real friendships. I have tons of acquaintances and neighbors and classmates, but...no close friends. Mostly I'm horribly lonely and missing the few close friends I have left that live out of state. I am very outgoing and personable. Where the hell am I supposed to meet people and how am I supposed to make friendships that will last? The people that I thought were my good friends have been turning out to not care about me very much at all. I am feeling very lost and lonely and frustrated...
Thanks for listening, EF family.