Leaving school without a job.
Now I'm having small jobs I like, while taking distance learning courses. I think I'll drop these courses in the end of the year and take evening classes related to the field of my jobs starting in September or even in the summer if I can apply early, but in the beginning it was because of being in depression and dysphoria so I thought I was doomed and will never be able to live independently, that my parents would throw me out (I had difficulties with them as well, now they won't throw me out despite these difficulties but they almost did at the time.)
I think I'm really lucky to have found these small jobs, it really helped my self-esteem, plus in a field I always wanted to work in... despite not finishing school! I'm looking forward to the future, now, instead of back to the past thinking I'll never succeed anything.
(Really, I was lucky, first one I got by entering a store and talking to the boss/seller/manufactur er guy, second by searching for a job and I didn't have some required papers and no money to get them but I entered another place to wait warmly, and there was an announce and I just sent an email and got it... it renewed my hopes to work in that field!)