Venting about a break-up.

LadyDarknezz LadyDarknezz
Wow...It's been six years since my five year relationship with my first love ended, yet, I'm still not over it. It's strange to me because I don't want anything to do with him now, but I have this frightening hatred for him. I feel like he's the last man I'll ever be with since my life literally halted after our break-up.

He has a great and happy life while I am sick with a really lame abdominal disease called Sphincter of Oddi Dysfunction and a really huge right ovary that I am waiting to get diagnosed later this month. I just thought I should vent about it since, yeah...it's never good to hold so many negative feelings inside without talking to anyone about it.

I think the problem I have stems from me being sexually abused when I was growing up, so it was really hard for me to finally let someone get to know me so intimately. He cheated on me shortly after I finally had sex with him...What a douche bag!

Anyway, I am currently in a long distance relationship right now, but I feel so paranoid as if he, too, will hurt me like the last asshole. Hell, I don't even know if he and I will even meet one day. He lives in Georgia while I live in California. Sorry for the long rant, it's just that I had to let out all this crap somehow.
09/18/2011
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Elnoa Elnoa
Perhaps you would benefit from some perspective. I've been in my share of crappy relationships, but, who cares? People will be cruel, no matter what you do. The thing is to focus on what makes or does not make you happy, and act accordingly. If someone breaks your heart? Get over it! I know that seems insensitive, but the best lesson I ever learned was to "get over it". I had an abusive childhood as well, been with abusive men, have bounced from one US coast to the other searching for "myself", and honestly, the best thing I ever did for myself was to just "get over it" and move on. Cut ties with the people who hurt you and to hell with them!

I wish you the best. :3
09/18/2011
LadyDarknezz LadyDarknezz
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Originally posted by Elnoa
Perhaps you would benefit from some perspective. I've been in my share of crappy relationships, but, who cares? People will be cruel, no matter what you do. The thing is to focus on what makes or does not make you happy, and act accordingly. If ... More
You are so right. Pfft, I don't see it as insensitive at all I just see it as tough love which I find to be quite helpful when I get in those kind of moods. Thanks for the added perspective.

Also, I'm sorry that you were abused in the past as well. You definitely seem quite strong and I admire the hell outta that!
09/18/2011
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