I freaked out sitting in the back of a police car for a ride home
when I found the back door had no way out and no window controls either! (I panicked deep inside, I kept my cool outwardly, but barely!)Sure, my mom was in the front seat and we four kids in the back.
NO! Not what it seems, LOL!!
At the end of a Memorial Day parade, a cop gave us a free ride which I thought would be cool. WRONG! Apparently, I don't do well confined; lack of control upsets me. I'm the jerk who'd be testing my safe word like the boy who cried wolf!! I trust no one! People lie and are MEAN. No way I'm giving up my escape options!!!
And don't get me started on ball gags and such! What if my nose plugs up and I have to vomit? It could happen.
I need peace of mind, okay? Unfortunately, I have been completely under medical professional's control and had them do things I said not to, so that nearly killed me (several times, they don't LISTEN, or learn). If this is just for fun, I doubt I could get past the life and death situations where I was NOT listened to. Yeah, I have issues.
That said, I've seen some amazingly cool couture ropework clothes someone shared with me on another forum. Would I like tying someone up? Considering my preference for self-control, maybe it would extend to liking controlling others? I don't know. But, part of the fun for me is the interactivity with a person. Maybe that's because I've been stuck with just the minimally interactive toys for so long. Fucking an immobile object is only so interesting after a while, at least it is that way for me with the toys. Maybe the sentience of the immobilized is the key?
I may not want to participate, but it also has never been brought up for me with sex, so I've never tried.