i am Bi-polar,and have been since i was 9 but iwasnt diagnosed untill just very recently. and none of my family knows i am also not on meds simply becuase i cannot afford them.
although i didnt go from person to person having sex with them i was kind of the opposite when i was in my manic state people thought i was on speed or something i will run in circles yelling,run up to strangers and scream randomly in their faces fore running away giggling,and mostly i like to self mutilate when i am manic it creeps my boyfriend out when i start singing to myself in the bathroom in french or japaneese while cutting myself thenpunching the cuts to make them bleed more.
My boyfriend is a very nervous person becuase of me, of which i cannot blame him
he refuses to take me around his freinds or out in public (we dont go out to the bar or to play pool or go dancing) he is just to embarrsesed of me.
he wont talk to me over the phone anymore either. i canot blame him though it my own fault. if i feel anything at all (sadness or mania) i have to tell him so he will not come out to pick me up for a week or two. it makes me feel really bad like he doesnt love me but hey its my own fault.