I can get aroused by thinking of someone just being content, but when I really want to get off they’re always uncomfortable.
What’s hot about stuffing a boy until his tummy bulges? What’s the appeal?
A long time ago I wrote a story called “Ice Cream” that kind of sums it up. It emphasizes all the physical attributes I love.
I love the control inherent in feederism—though I don’t think it’s that way for everyone. Being able to tailor a feedee’s body to have the attributes I find most sexy is a huge head rush. I’m also really fascinated by male models and metrosexuals dolling themselves up for the “female gaze,” though it may be hard to see that analogy when feederism involves such a different idea of “beautiful” or “sexy.” Sometimes, when feedee drinks a lot of liquid, you can see their tummies grow as they swallow, and it’s like my clit gets a little bit closer to orgasm with each tiny expansion.
Watching someone lose control and gorge themselves to bursting is also a kind of voyeurism. I think of myself as someone with a huge libido and huge emotions, without many outlets for them. I imagine a fully stuffed feedee to just be wallowing in satisfaction and pleasure, as if they’ve just sated a superhuman appetite, and I can identify with that need. Sometimes I envy their big bellies!
Are you only interested in the digestive system from the stomach up, or does the entire digestive process intrigue you?
Almost everything interests me. I like gurgly digestive noises and thinking about nutrients being absorbed and bowel pressure and piss. I’ve also studied a little bit of anatomy in order to give better anal to boys, and am intrigued with enemas after a U.K. feedee demonstrated one for me on cam. So except for scat, I like the whole thing end to end!
Do you like the sound of chewing, burping, etc?
I do! And hiccuping. I like my online feedees (people I talk with over webcam) to drink a lot of soda so they’ll burp, and I like to watch and think about how it might feel inside their tummies when they do.
However, I don’t usually tell people this because 1.) It makes it painfully obvious I have a really weird rare fetish and 2.) I am afraid lonely men will follow me around at the next BDSM party I attend trying to burp in my ear or something.
Do you watch people eating at restaurants and get turned on?
I get asked this question a lot, and I do my best to answer it so that people don’t feel weird eating around me.
I imagine that guys who fancy boobs have similar problems to mine in that it can be either just part of the background or a huge potential embarrassment. Most people are “meh,” but if I’m attracted to you, there’s a good chance I’ll want to watch you eating, too. I remember a happy hour recently where a man I had a crush on attended and I spent one part of the evening trying not to look at him when he was drinking beer from the bottle because I was getting turned on, but usually, I don’t care.
Besides your site, can you recommend any online resources?
Frustratingly, I still can’t offer many online resources. I dunno if I’m not looking hard enough (type “feederism” into Google and you’ll get a lot of stuff about how sick a fetish it is, which I find hard to wade through), or if we’re just too rare.
Fantasy Feeder is my favorite feederism dating site. I understand there are more, but they’re usually for gay men, so I haven’t reviewed them.
Dimensions magazine has a forum where people can post questions, pictures, or erotica they’ve written.
A while back, The New York Times mentioned feederism in an article, and that started a small flurry of articles on the fetish—most of which equated it with fat acceptance. Some fat acceptance bloggers got mad. However, all the linking led me to the GitBigger blog. It’s written by a gay gainer dude who writes eloquently about his changing body. This in turn has led me to a whole world of gay gainer blogs which, even though I approach the fetish as “straight,” has helped me see what it’s like when it’s something people actually do as part of a relationship, rather than a wild cartoon fantasy.
Describe your ideal fantasy scene.
There are so many, but one of my favorites is a “Look what you’ve done” scene. It’s where I’ve been feeding my beautiful feedee lavishly for several weeks and now we’re lying in bed naked together and cataloging the changes in his body.
Usually, the feedee’s got some kind of deprivation back-story: He had some kind of horrible relationship with food, or was stranded on a desert island and got all skinny, or is a workaholic who forgets to eat. Not anymore! Now he gets to indulge himself in any way he wants, and will be praised for gaining weight. I’ll caress and kiss every inch of him as I tell him each way his body looks different: the rounder thighs, the softness under his nipples, the luscious ass... Of course, I’ll give the most attention to his soft, round, satisfied tummy...and from there, to his dick. Usually this ends in a nice hard fuck for me!