I have been single for the last 5 years and so has my sex life. I recently ordered a few sex toys for my own pleasure but I feel guilty because i've never done this before, (buying sex toys). I guess since I am a single, older mother of 2 teens and try to live a "clean" life, I think that is where the guilt comes in. I have no potential men in my life and my ex has been wanting to pay for my ticket to come and see him. I have no potential in wanting to see him unless I know for sure he's a changed individual. Have i also mentioned that while job hunting, I've been drawn to porn sites and i cannot stop thinking about sex. Yours thoughts please. Thank you for your help.