Congrats! And don't sweat it, we all have our hangups and scars. Try and quell the crazy, at least until you have the type of relationship where you can discuss such things. Until then, enjoy the wild ride
Congratulations! I know how that is. Every time something goes just right for me, I start obsessing over what will go wrong. Kind of like, ok when is the rug going to be pulled out from under me. And I'm going to tell you what I tell myself. Stop it! Don't do that to yourself. Just enjoy the moment.
Congrats! Enjoy the moment and what is meant to be will be. If he is as great as you think he is then he will recognize how wonderful you are and will continue to enjoy your company. If he takes off OR treats you badly, then he is not who you thought he was and you will do better!
The more I relive the night, the more I realize that he is exactly what I needed...not just for the getting laid part, but because he made me push boundaries I would never have been able to on my own. Even if he hurts me, I will never regret it because I know more about myself now than I did before.