I've been debating making a post like this for a while, because I try to steer clear of sappy stuff like this. Especially because, well, I've never met most of you in real life! And still I feel like I know a lot of you. In fact, some of you have reached out to me specifically and right now in my life even a message on the internet means a lot.
Without getting really graphic I have had a really hellish past few months. Some of you may know that it's been my aspiration to go to law school, but due to family health problems, bills and a lot of other things I've had to postpone my plans to go indefinitely. Don't get me wrong; I will get there some day. It's just not going to be a soon as I had hoped.
Between unemployment, my partner of two years finally reaching his rock bottom with drug addiction and spending x-mas praying for my Pops who is doing another round of chemo...this has just not been my past few months. AT ALL. Sometimes all I have had to get away from the stress of my life is coming on this site and browsing reviews or writing one myself, or taking part in a discussion in the forums. It was the escape that I needed from all the serious things going on in the real world I was living in.
And that has meant so much to me.
I have had my ups and downs with Edenfantasys, and anyone that has been here for a while knows I've had my share of spats on these boards. But at the end of the day I really do love this place. Gary, Victoria, Carrie Ann, JR and all the other administrators are endlessly patient with us and are always looking for new ways to develop and nurture our community. So many reviewers like kck, Blinker, Sir and others have shown me a lot of kindness and have engaged me in some wonderful conversations.
Even people I've disagreed with I appreciate, because a lot of those conversations led me to re-thinking my approach to various topics.
I know to some people this post probably seems really melodramatic, but sometimes when things get really tough it's something as simple as an online community that gets you through. Fact is we're all real people on the other side of the screen all over the States and Canada and even beyond. We're all living real lives, and the things you say and do on the internet actually can have a real, lasting impact in the real world - even thousands of miles from where you are.
So thanks, everyone. Because you have had a lasting impact on me for the better.
Sex & Lies (and eventually Law!)