So here I am, alone (as I have been for the majority of the last 6 months), without hope, and without the future we had planned together. I ended a marriage prior to this and had no problem seeing a life without him and happiness down the road. But I feel like this man really was the one, he was the best fit for me I'd ever found in every way, and I just can't see the light at the end of the tunnel here. It seems that my two choices now are to be alone for good or settle for someone and always look back on him. Has anyone felt this way before, like there is simply no hope for them, and had it turn around? The bottom line is he can't be with me and I deserve someone that would've fought harder for me anyway. But he was wonderfully submissive and kinky, had all the same interests, was my physical ideal, made me feel absolutely beautiful, and was my best friend. What are the chances I'll ever find anything close to that again?
I'm also creeping up on 30 which makes this even more stressful - it just seems like it's over for me.