My boss sat me down and said, "we need to talk."... And so, she talked, and I listened. After a lot of rambling, she said "I'm letting you go at the end of July, okay?"
Um, what? She had been asking me to come on full time for weeks before that, and I had agreed.
After a few minutes, she said, "no, nevermind, I still want you here full time, but I can't do vacation time for you..." (I've always told her vacation time is important to me, as my boyfriend lives in the UK and I like to visit him... and, well, she doesn't give me benefits so I think I deserve some vacation time).
So, I stare out in space, and barely manage to utter a word.
She says, "I can do a week here, and a week there... if you give me enough notice. I may even be able to do a few days from the week after."
I already have a trip to see him planned in June, so I'm not too panicked yet...but I can just envision her giving me trouble the next time I request a 5 day vacation, even if it's 3 years from now.
So... I almost got fired. Then I ...wasn't fired. Then I was told no vacation time. Then, yeah, you can have a week off sometime (I was shooting for 2 weeks in a row, but I'll take a week; 7 days in UK with him is better than nothing!)... All in the span of 5 minutes.
I'm so confused that I've been crying since I've got home from work. Realistically, nothing has changed, but god it all feels like a mind-fuck.
And the only thing I can think is, "so I might not get to see my boyfriend again after all.."
I just really needed to vent. Thanks for listening/reading.