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being attacked and killed.
your children being injured or worse.
what scares you more than anything?
Hemorrhoids -- yes! I actually am a tiny bit paranoid about a few health problems: rectocele, dental problems and others. I have had a couple of illnesses combined, which caused me to be severely ill for years, so I've gotten a little paranoid ever since I've been back to normal, which began about a year and a half ago! Yay for health! I have worried about hemorrhoids and actually try to prevent all kinds of health issues now that I am healthy enough to have a life outside of the house.
My fears, before reading yours about hemorrhoids and realizing it has been scary thoughts for me too, would be 1. spiders. I know it's silly, but I hate them bastards with every thing I have. I F'ing hate them! I get panic attacks, sick to my stomach and flip out when I see them. My super fear of them actually wasn't as intense until I started having big problems with them. I always hated them and was squeamish of em', but a the summer before last at 3AM, I was digging in a drawer (one of those rolly carts with clear drawers) for a hair clip. Diggin', dig, diggin' and no hair clip. so I reached further and further back and started seeing tiny crawling things. Then more. Then F'ing millions! Then... I got to the back of the drawer (okay, my heart is pounding right now!) and there's this monsterous idiot! A wolf spider! EEEWWW. First time ever seeing one too.
So I called my sister, had a 2 hour long panic attack & finally she rooted me on, giving me lots of encouragement & bam! I used the broom so I could stand really far back, and just started slinging that broom down as hard and as many times as I could.
I hauled that damn rolly cart outside and wouldn't touch it for months. I'd used hairspray to kill the tiny ones I'd seen before I knew there was the huge monster lurking back there in the drawer. Lord I never want to experience that crap again! After that, I was horrified for good. Then we kept getting more! I'd see them all over the front porch. We live in an area where these things are pretty common. One night my dad seen 3 of the damn things on the porch and buried them! Ha Ha. No chances!
Anyways, so that is a huge fear of mine. I have had several really nasty experiences similar to that one so at this point, I don't even use the word "spider." It makes me sick to my stomach. I spell it instead.
Other fears... a little bit of fear where failure, not being good enough is concerned. I'm better about it, but it's still there some.
Yes, being attacked or hurt is one of mine that I worry about frequently. It crossed my mind just tonight. I hate that! Fire is another fear, but the s-p-i-d-e-r thing, health stuff and a certain person are the only fears that have actually put a big strain on my life.