The Underworld Diaries
A Time of Soul-Searching
Feb. 13th, 2011
This post is about the Soul-Searching I've recently done to try and figure out whether I am Synthetik's Submissive or Slave. Also, it talks about how, in the process of this soul-search, I learned something new about him that gives our relationship a whole new facet and dynamic.
Excerpt:
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"So, basically, I was doing a bit of looking deep into myself to figure out which one applied to me more. I'm the type that I don't like to describe myself as something, only to find that I am not exactly that certain something and have to retract it. That, and I definitely don't want to be seen as a "poser" or "wannabe" or anything.
Much thinking ensued. And reading too. On SubmissiveGuide.com I found a post regarding the Submissive vs. Slave debate said, basically, that a slave would sort of take on the limits of the Master, that got me to thinking, "What are Synthetik's limits?". So, I found a BDSM Checklist online and we went down the list, one by one, to see what things he was into (and after he answered, I would tell him my opinion on it). He and I were both 100% honest on everything, like a sort of kinky heart-to-heart...."
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