First of all, I really want you guys to know this ONE thing:

I did not give up on you, the site, or the programs here. I did not quit, I was not technically fired nor laid off...my position simply does not exist anymore. And this is the statement that should speak volumes to you. The lack of participation and support within the community during the transition led to this. I was asked not to state this but instead tell you all that I had moved on to "bigger and better things". This is not the case -- I do not have a new job. I was not looking for a new job. I was looking to increase my hours here from part-time to full-time. Last Friday, the rug was pulled out from under me, full stop. That's the truth.

I will be around if and when I can be. But out of respect for my sanity, I will not answer nor redirect any issues concerning the site or any problems with the programs. I hope you understand.

Thank you for all of your well wishes and for reaffirming that you enjoyed not only my company but the way I managed the community. If I had the capital, I'd start my own site. (Not really, that's a huge pain to undertake. But it's a great fantasy. No pun intended.) less

First of all, I really want you guys to know this ONE thing:

I did not give up on you, the site, or the programs here. I did not quit, I was not technically fired nor laid off...my position simply does not exist anymore. And this is the statement that should speak volumes to you. The lack of participation and support within the community during the transition led to this. I was asked not to state this but instead tell you all that I had moved on to "bigger and better things". This is not the case -- I do not have a new job. I was not looking for a new job. I was looking to increase my hours here from part-time to full-time. Last Friday, the rug was pulled out from under me, full stop. That's the truth.

I will be around if and when I can be. But out of respect for my sanity, I will not answer nor redirect any issues concerning the site or any problems with the programs. I hope you understand.

Thank you for all of your well wishes and for reaffirming that you enjoyed not only my company but the way I managed the community. If I had the capital, I'd start my own site. (Not really, that's a huge pain to undertake. But it's a great fantasy. No pun intended.) less

I have never met you, but from the interactions we have had here, brief as they may be, I suspect you are a motivated, bright and ambitious person who will not only land on your feet, but find many bright opportunities for your future are just around the corner. Best wishes wherever life takes you.
P.S. If you are looking for "people interactive" jobs via the internet or phone, you need to check with both insurance companies and possibly the pharmaceutical industry, where large banks of people now interact with patients as both information assistants and advocates. It might just be your "cup of tea"! less

I wasn't putting any blame on you, I don't know why you're reacting so negatively toward what I said. I didn't say anything was your fault, I didn't say what happened wasn't necessary for the company. I've always appreciated you, and you know that. If you'd like to treat me like the enemy, I guess that's your choice. You and I have never hashed anything out..so I don't know what you and I would rehash... less

I'm just so drained of the whole thing. There was a certain organic nature in the forum originally that is no longer there and it's one of those things that is so simple yet so unbelievably complicated...

A lot of people treated this like their full time job and I have no idea where that mentality came from or who first started pressuring the community to take ownership for the site and with that entitlement came a tidal wave of problems. Everyone has a different opinion about what happened and I've explained it all a thousand different ways.

I apologize for snapping, there's a certain lack of tone and inflection involved in reading text...often read in our own narrative and I've yet to see anyone remark on a positive note when it comes to the changes. It's a mere reflex at this point. Just now that I no longer have to be the politician of EF, I can be a little more candid in my responses. less

Thank you!! I have faith I'll land on my feet. I am not bitter, nor is this something that stunned me. I have an impressive resume and to be honest running the EF community was something spontaneous and new for me, I had never done anything like it before and being that I felt so at home here, it really seemed like a natural transition. Now the sun has set and I'll be riding off towards a new horizon with new adventures. I'm not scared, nor do I have any hard feelings towards anyone.

I learned a lot about people in ways I never could have imagined before and across a wide scope of human behavior. It was fascinating and that's what kept me going when things got tough -- to ultimately see if I could turn it around. Sometimes I succeeded, sometimes I failed, but I know that I always did my best. I'm not ashamed, nor guilty of any wrong doing as my intentions were always pure. Mainly to offer everyone a safe place to express their sexual desires. Due to an extremely large number of factors that none of you are privy to, Rome fell.

It happens. The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again expecting a different result and this is the point the community is at.

Perhaps in the future, someone else will pick the ball up and get it rolling again or there may be a different direction ahead -- I don't know anymore about that than the rest of you.

I had a great time and I'll never forget any of the experiences I had here. From the first party I hosted on my own to being actively involved in major decisions regarding the community and policies thereof. No matter the outcome, my time here will always be marked as a success in my book. less