I had my first one (despite masturbating for like 12-13 years) in December 2018!
Because... well, I had a very religious upbringing, and anything sexual was (and still is) seen in an overall negative light. Heck, my mom (since finding out I have sex toys) still tries to lecture me on a regular basis. I'm in my mid-20's! Basically I figured I had secondary anorgasmia.
Anyway. Regarding first orgasm. T'was in the shower. I was using some rabbit from Paloqueth (@Amazon), and everything was going as per usual - just pleasant, but nothing crazy. And then I noticed I was holding my breath. So I forced myself to breathe. I had been having many conversations with my close friends about body/sex positivity, and I recalled one of them telling me it's okay to feel new things.
The feeling intensified, and I let it. I ended up going into some kinda silent mantra, tbh, telling myself it was okay to do this, that it's not against God's will or anything, that everyone does it, and then suddenly I was there. I remember this wonderful feeling rush from my abdomen to my legs, to my fingertips, literally encompassing every bit of my body. It passed through me in kinda, like, waves, and lasted for maybe 15 seconds or so.
And then I was high off of the rush of dopamine/serotonin for the next hour or so. It was fantastic; I finally understood wtf everyone was going on about - I finally realized that not all women fake it (as I had previously thought), and that the rumored afterglow was real. Honestly, it felt like I finally was let into the club that was off limits to me until that point.
Since then, I've gotten a little bit better at coming. I still don't come every time. So instead of secondary anorgasmia, it's situational. I have to use many toys to bring myself to that peak, and oftentimes it's unsuccessful. But not always.
It used to be very frustrating, honestly - imagine masturbating for 3-4 hours without climax. For 12-13 years, with partners and solo play. I'm no masochist.
Anyway.
I'm really happy I figured out how to get past this mindset that was engraved in my brain. Late to the party? Yes. But better late than never.
