Years ago when I was single I always wanted to be with a man, any man... that was in my twenties. In my thirties I married and had a small flirty interest with a vibrating plastic dildo, you know the kind, uninteresting just functional from Spencers, still fun. After it finally wore out I kept meaning to go back an get another but always felt self-conscious walking into the store.
Many years past, sex became common place, almost a chore and I no longer craved that intimacy, in my circle of "friends and family" couples rarely ever even held hands never mind kissed in public. My intimacy feelings changed as a result as I came to understand once married the passion goes down the tube.
Last year I went through some pretty major changes in my life, positive ones. My awareness of life and what it had to offer shifted. There was no major one defining moment that did it but many many little things that added up opening my eyes to other possibilities. Come this May I will have been with EF for 1 year, my first anniversary with the site, a new celebration for me and for the passion again that awaits me.
Its not just the toys that thrill me though they're a big contributing factor, but the freedom I feel to enjoy myself and no longer worried about guilt. I'm liberated, my mind open to try new things every day, much of which I learned on EF and from all of you. Thank you!