This is a bit of a rant. I need to talk I've just had it I can't deal. It's that time of the month AND my irritable bowel syndrom is RAGING on top of that the worst days of work ever AND I can't even get enough sleep now I have a headache because I didn 't get enough sleep. Work is very demanding and hard and I didn't sleep well now I got all this stress of my dad being on vacation so he is home at the house doing nothing for a month except drving me up the fucking wall especially because my mom is a piece of work and can't stand him plus she is like a little kid in life doesn't get what she wants and whines and crys and there is alot more very umpleasant things I won't mention. So I'm an extremly light sleeper when people hack their lungs out the room next to me(from smoking I hate smoking SO much) or even the room farthest away it wakes me up or jerks me up from sleep always has,tried sleeping with earplus and can't. Can't sleep with any noise on. Why am I so sensitive?! even shutting a door the other end of the house wakes me up. My mom and I have no wher else to go and can't afford to move but I am in misery. The reason I stay at my current job is because the manager always does the schedule I want 5-11pm if I work somewhere else they most likely won't hire someone who only works that much and 5 days a week plus I will get fired if my schedule changes because I'm stuck in the bathroom several times an hour and even late for my work shift by a few minutes everyday I'd rather be fired than ever say a word this is like my deep secret. I live a miserable life with the people here and every single day I'm suffering no one would believe me anyway because I appear normal at work and believe me when I want to cry and often it is at work I have to hold it in or I just look angry or weird looks on my face I'm a prisoner in my own body somedays I just want to scream fuck you body you piece of shit why can't you just fucking work. THe only break I have caught is living at my dad's I don't have to pay rent and I still have my job. I don't even want to eat today I'm afraid of food but if I don't eat I will get dizzy because my ibs will get mad at me. I want to not go to work today with a passion but if I don't I will get introuble maybe I can find someone with the flu and they could caugh on me oh wait I'd love to do that and miss work except my body stops working even more when I get sick because of ibs. My boyfriend is going to be gone for abvout a month so I will be super lonely. Things better start looking up or I'll be like a living dead girl everyday like I have been. The only things I want in life is to have my health and my own place but on my wages and being ill I don't think it will ever happen. I've gotten to the point I almost shut down at work and stare off and won't work or move. I start moving slow and stare off and snap myself out of it. less

My life isn't awful but it's not great really. I'm sort of in a rut with my life, and getting fed up with it.

Everyone keeps telling me to go to school, but I don't really have the motivation to do it, or know what I wanna do yet.

My stomach and me are at war. I had an ulcer and got rid of it, but now it hurts a lot... consistently, whether I eat healthy or not. I have to get to a doctor, you know... when I finally get a job to afford a visit. less

I was feeling a little miserable with my life at the moment but listening to someone else's tends to make my life seem easy.
I'm really sorry things just aren't going well. I don't personally have IBS but my mum and bro suffer from it at times. Fortunately they only get it when they are under stress. They swear by Mintec to stop the symptoms. But I don't know if that would work or not for more chronic forms of IBS.
I have read around the site from others who say tablets seem to make theirs worse.
Seems to be far more common than I ever thought. Whats unusual though is I'm the most stressed or anxious in my family but I have escaped it - touch wood.
Would it be the work stress and living arrangement that has made it worse at the moment?
I hope you're able to get some sleep soon - I know for myself, there's only so much sleep I can miss out on before I really want to snap and go insane.
Where's a hug smiley when ya need it.... less

I was feeling a little miserable with my life at the moment but listening to someone else's tends to make my life seem easy.
I'm really sorry things just aren't going well. I don't personally have IBS but my mum and bro suffer from it at times. Fortunately they only get it when they are under stress. They swear by Mintec to stop the symptoms. But I don't know if that would work or not for more chronic forms of IBS.
I have read around the site from others who say tablets seem to make theirs worse.
Seems to be far more common than I ever thought. Whats unusual though is I'm the most stressed or anxious in my family but I have escaped it - touch wood.
Would it be the work stress and living arrangement that has made it worse at the moment?
I hope you're able to get some sleep soon - I know for myself, there's only so much sleep I can miss out on before I really want to snap and go insane.
Where's a hug smiley when ya need it.... less

My life isn't awful but it's not great really. I'm sort of in a rut with my life, and getting fed up with it.

Everyone keeps telling me to go to school, but I don't really have the motivation to do it, or know what I wanna do yet.

My stomach and me are at war. I had an ulcer and got rid of it, but now it hurts a lot... consistently, whether I eat healthy or not. I have to get to a doctor, you know... when I finally get a job to afford a visit. less

Try looking into free clinics. If you can't find one try calling your local hospital's ER. It's possible that they will waive the cost for low/no income nad no insurance. Ours here does this, all you have to do is submit the paperwork after your visit. I had to do that for a visit of my son's a few years ago when we had started new jobs and didn't yet have insurance. less

I was going to say something similar to this. Sometimes when things are looking really down your outlook on the situation can play a big role in your emotional as well as physical health. If you're stressed out and trying to keep things hidden at work and then stressed out at home it's going to just make for more emotional distress and likely make your IBS flare up even more.

I know that when things are not going well it's difficult not to stress. Trust me, I know..I'm a constant worrier and I allow myself to get so stressed out I make myself almost sick! But, if you reevaluate things and try to focus on the positives..and trust me there IS positives, it might help relieve some emotional stress which in turn might help relieve some of the IBS flare ups.

There's a few things I'd recommend doing. One, talk to your doctor and see what they recommend as far as work. You're correct that working only 30 hours a week is not going to be enough to live on your own most likely. So, see what the doctor thinks. If your IBS is that severe maybe you'll qualify for some sort of disability, which could help pay the bills. I don't know if you're already in school, but if not you also might try thinking about applying for school and going for something that typically can be a work at home job. (Medical Transcription, billing and coding, etc.) If you can't sit through classes try looking for online courses. There's usually financial aid and grants available to help with those costs as well.

As far as work goes- tell your boss and ask that it be kept confidential. No one else at work needs to know your business. But being upfront with your boss about any medical condition allows them to work with you. If they don't know they can't help but think you're just slacking off. less

no I won't tell anyone there I don't trust anyone not anyone except my boyfriend,hes a manager but I would rather be fired than talk about it. I just need to worry about trying to get better not working online sometimes I am typing a message or email and I have to leave my computer once or twice. sometimes literally 1 or 2 minutes after I just sit down I am up again. I really don't want to do collegei have no money. I'm really not interested in college I just want to be able to work more hours and be able to go out more and have a good day rather than often telling my boyfriend he will have to go to the movie alone because I can't stay out of the bathroom. I've seen doctors here probly 10 times for my ibs prescriptions don't help only irritate me more and I don't want to go on disability I just want to be normal and be able to work 8 hours a day instead of 5.5 hours (half hour break isn't paid) Even if I could afford to live on my own this town has filled up with oil filed workers and there is no apartments available or houses even though a bunch were built. Now if you want a place of your own you have to be rich because prices are so high because they know oil filed workers will pay. Even if I get a shooting pain or cramp from ibs at work it only lasts a few seconds I don't allow myself to say ouch I just wait for it to pass. I don't go to the doctor anymore not even for yearly woman exam because the $300 bill always goes to a collection agency because I can't pay that gets real annoying. I will just keep focusing on my diet and try to get better. I am also on my period now too. Doctor appoints end at about 4pm here I can't make it at that hour I'm still having toilet issues then. When I had a bad cold I had to cancel my doctor appointment at 3:30 because i couldn't stop runing in there luckily I recoverd without medication. less

Well, here's my opinion. Now, keep in mind this is just my opinion but..

As an adult there are responsibilities. To say you'd rather be fired than tell someone about your condition is NOT being responsible. You want to live on your own but you'd rather be fired then tell someone? That's not going to work out.

Also, you're not going to magically get better. You may want to, and I get that, but it's not going to just happen so you need to learn to manage it.

I know it's hard but having an "I can't" attitude just isn't going to work, either is saying "I don't want to" for everything. Obviously it's your own life and it doesn't really matter what I say or anything, I'm just trying to give you some advice. Things don't just happen, you have to make them happen and that takes a lot of hard work and sometimes means doing things you don't really want to do.

Even if you can work 40 hours, if you're working at a low paying job it'll be awfully hard to find a place and make ends meet especially with medical bills. If you have medical bills and don't pay them you'll get bad credit. With bad credit you won't be able to find a place either. If you make tiny payments on the medical bills they will stay out of collections. If you're at home and not paying rent you should have the money to do that at least. It's all about being an adult and doing what NEEDS to be done not what you WANT to do.

I mean sure I get not wanting to be on disability but if you CANNOT work enough because of your illness then well..that's a disability, you gotta do what you gotta do..or you can live at home and just deal with things as they are. Those are the choices and unfortunately there's no easy option. Those are the cards you were dealt and now the best you can do is try to keep a good attitude about it and do what you can. less

Well, here's my opinion. Now, keep in mind this is just my opinion but..

As an adult there are responsibilities. To say you'd rather be fired than tell someone about your condition is NOT being responsible. You want to live on your own but you'd rather be fired then tell someone? That's not going to work out.

Also, you're not going to magically get better. You may want to, and I get that, but it's not going to just happen so you need to learn to manage it.

I know it's hard but having an "I can't" attitude just isn't going to work, either is saying "I don't want to" for everything. Obviously it's your own life and it doesn't really matter what I say or anything, I'm just trying to give you some advice. Things don't just happen, you have to make them happen and that takes a lot of hard work and sometimes means doing things you don't really want to do.

Even if you can work 40 hours, if you're working at a low paying job it'll be awfully hard to find a place and make ends meet especially with medical bills. If you have medical bills and don't pay them you'll get bad credit. With bad credit you won't be able to find a place either. If you make tiny payments on the medical bills they will stay out of collections. If you're at home and not paying rent you should have the money to do that at least. It's all about being an adult and doing what NEEDS to be done not what you WANT to do.

I mean sure I get not wanting to be on disability but if you CANNOT work enough because of your illness then well..that's a disability, you gotta do what you gotta do..or you can live at home and just deal with things as they are. Those are the choices and unfortunately there's no easy option. Those are the cards you were dealt and now the best you can do is try to keep a good attitude about it and do what you can. less