So yesterday I told my guy about something I experience regularly, often multiple times a day. It was the first time I'd told anyone about it.
Basically I imagine myself getting killed in various ways. Not like an intentional thought or fantasy kind of way. What happens is something will just trigger the thought. Like if I see a particular bend in a fence lining the median of a road and I'll suddenly have this detailed picture of a violent car crash in my head. Or I'll walk past a closet or an ally and have a vision of a man hiding in the darkness, the gruesome murder that ensues. Stabbings. Shootings. The slitting of throats. Torture.
It's always really detailed, but not prolonged. Like truly just this snapshot thought. It doesn't get in the way of my functioning, doesn't make me sad or anxious really (though sometimes I'll scare myself when I'm alone in my apartment at night). I've always wondered if it was normal, and I kinda figured that it can't be too weird, because I'm not a violent person at all. I don't care for violent music, video games, violent tv or movies. Hate needlessly gruesome shock horror movies. It's not something I consider myself preoccupied with it at all.... except that I see violent things in my mind all the time.
In short, he looked at me like I was crazy and perhaps as though I should seek therapy lol. Apparently, most people do not experience this.
Have you ever experienced this? Do you think it's normal?
What could be causing this??
Basically I imagine myself getting killed in various ways. Not like an intentional thought or fantasy kind of way. What happens is something will just trigger the thought. Like if I see a particular bend in a fence lining the median of a road and I'll suddenly have this detailed picture of a violent car crash in my head. Or I'll walk past a closet or an ally and have a vision of a man hiding in the darkness, the gruesome murder that ensues. Stabbings. Shootings. The slitting of throats. Torture.
It's always really detailed, but not prolonged. Like truly just this snapshot thought. It doesn't get in the way of my functioning, doesn't make me sad or anxious really (though sometimes I'll scare myself when I'm alone in my apartment at night). I've always wondered if it was normal, and I kinda figured that it can't be too weird, because I'm not a violent person at all. I don't care for violent music, video games, violent tv or movies. Hate needlessly gruesome shock horror movies. It's not something I consider myself preoccupied with it at all.... except that I see violent things in my mind all the time.
In short, he looked at me like I was crazy and perhaps as though I should seek therapy lol. Apparently, most people do not experience this.
Have you ever experienced this? Do you think it's normal?
What could be causing this??
