I had a conversation with my sisters earlier today, dang I feel old. Anyway it brought up a good point. When you first started making out, having oral, stripteasing and everything else sexual did you do it for fun and pleasure or did you do it for intimancy and pleasure.

I look back and think dang, I was stupid I did it cause I liked the way an orgasm felt. The first few monthes I was having sex with my boyfriend I dont really think I knew what true love was I was young and dumb. It took me probably almost a year or so to like the intimancy involved in sex and not just him making me orgasm. I would say I love you, but I dont think I new what I was trually saying when I first started saying it. less

Interesting question.

I didn't have anything until I was 17, because I was so serious that only guys who wanted something serious would consider me. (Teenage boys aren't serious, they're dogs.) I was not attractive or flirty, so I didn't get any attention from them except the occasional cruel joke ending with them saying 'You stupid bitch, as IF I would want something like you! Haven't you figured out by now you're too ugly and fat to be wanted??'.

My first and only boyfriend was a geek like me, and I just fell madly in love with him because he gave me attention, wanted me, and cared about what I thought and was going through. I loved the intimacy as much as the feelings of elation when we became physical. We never had actual sex (the most was feeling the other up), and that was okay with both of us. I had a breakdown about a month after he started ignoring me because I invested so much of myself into what we had.

I wanted intimacy and love and devotion and respect (as well as sex), right from the very beginning. I just should not have expected such things out of a teenage boy. less