Hey everyone. As all of you know I'm engaged to a wonderful man, and I love him with all my heart. We always have amazing love-making. We never fail to make each other happy. The last two days, we just seem really out of touch due to outside stressors. Our families are just really getting into it with us (not about our engagement, about regular family crap). It seems to be really distracting. We still live apart, and we don't plan to live with each other until after the wedding. We are having trouble finding a home in our area that is big enough, but small enough for a couple at the same time.
Anyway... Last night, he comes over. We had been missing each other a lot this week. I only saw him once because of school and work. Our lovemaking was sloppy last time, and got ruined by a snapping cock ring (see reviews for more info on that...). We were both really just out of touch and distracted. We weren't looking each other in the eyes during sex like we usually do, and you could just feel that lack of connection. It's hard to explain, but i'm sure some of you out there could understand.
So last night, we put a movie on, and munch on some strawberries in bed and just relax. Things started to get really hot and heavy. It was like everything was back to where it was supposed to be. I have had trouble with my person lubrication due to my medications, but I was soaking wet for him. It was perfect. We start having sex, and he cums in... like two minutes. This isn't bad, but it is abnormal because he is one of those men who can go for an hour if he wanted to. Although the sex was good, and the connection was felt, things got worse.
He got up to go to the restroom, and I got completely naked (it was all spontaneous, so we worked around my shorts lol) and just waited in bed for him. I heard the phone ring, and it was his sister's ringtone. Me and her have not yet come to terms it seems. She hated me for the first year my fiance and I dated, and she's just starting to even talk to me again. But it seriously seems like she is always trying to pull him away from me when he's over. I could hear her voice just yelling, SO LOUD. I mean, the bathroom is all the way on the other end of the bedroom, and I could hear her through the door. She wanted him to "GET HIS ASS" to his parents house because they needed to talk about something with him. It was something really stupid, and it basically could have waited. But she made it sound important... so he left...
So I'm in bed, sexually frustrated yet cannot get wet or even get turned on because I'm so upset. And I know well that I don't need a man to pleasure myself, yet it's not just the orgasm that I want... I want my future husband, and I want to make love with him without these losses of connection. I talked to him on the phone, and he ended up just sleeping there last night... didn't even come back to my place. We talked on the phone all night before bed, just like we did when we were younger. This was cute... but I needed him next to me.
I can't see him again until Tuesday/Wednesday. He's with the air force and has to travel to New Mexico for a few nights. I figured, let him go to sleep, he needs his rest... I can always masturbate tomorrow. Today, I have tried everything I can to get in the mood. Maybe I need to rephrase that, because I am in the mood to have self-pleasure, but I have this mental block. I keep imagining him here with me, and us having sex - as usual. But I can't come to orgasm because of all the stress we have been having. Everytime I remember that he left me here last night, or he's in new mexico, or the loss of connection... I just lose it.
Does anyone go through this? Does anyone have advice, maybe a married couple? How do you get through this mental block, and enjoy self pleasure again when you just can't get there... It's so funny because I preach masturbation for a living! It just seems like it is disrupting my mood that I cannot enjoy pleasure when he is gone, and it's hard to get us connected during love-making lately. I don't want sex to just be SEX. There's more to it...
Anyway... Last night, he comes over. We had been missing each other a lot this week. I only saw him once because of school and work. Our lovemaking was sloppy last time, and got ruined by a snapping cock ring (see reviews for more info on that...). We were both really just out of touch and distracted. We weren't looking each other in the eyes during sex like we usually do, and you could just feel that lack of connection. It's hard to explain, but i'm sure some of you out there could understand.
So last night, we put a movie on, and munch on some strawberries in bed and just relax. Things started to get really hot and heavy. It was like everything was back to where it was supposed to be. I have had trouble with my person lubrication due to my medications, but I was soaking wet for him. It was perfect. We start having sex, and he cums in... like two minutes. This isn't bad, but it is abnormal because he is one of those men who can go for an hour if he wanted to. Although the sex was good, and the connection was felt, things got worse.
He got up to go to the restroom, and I got completely naked (it was all spontaneous, so we worked around my shorts lol) and just waited in bed for him. I heard the phone ring, and it was his sister's ringtone. Me and her have not yet come to terms it seems. She hated me for the first year my fiance and I dated, and she's just starting to even talk to me again. But it seriously seems like she is always trying to pull him away from me when he's over. I could hear her voice just yelling, SO LOUD. I mean, the bathroom is all the way on the other end of the bedroom, and I could hear her through the door. She wanted him to "GET HIS ASS" to his parents house because they needed to talk about something with him. It was something really stupid, and it basically could have waited. But she made it sound important... so he left...
So I'm in bed, sexually frustrated yet cannot get wet or even get turned on because I'm so upset. And I know well that I don't need a man to pleasure myself, yet it's not just the orgasm that I want... I want my future husband, and I want to make love with him without these losses of connection. I talked to him on the phone, and he ended up just sleeping there last night... didn't even come back to my place. We talked on the phone all night before bed, just like we did when we were younger. This was cute... but I needed him next to me.
I can't see him again until Tuesday/Wednesday. He's with the air force and has to travel to New Mexico for a few nights. I figured, let him go to sleep, he needs his rest... I can always masturbate tomorrow. Today, I have tried everything I can to get in the mood. Maybe I need to rephrase that, because I am in the mood to have self-pleasure, but I have this mental block. I keep imagining him here with me, and us having sex - as usual. But I can't come to orgasm because of all the stress we have been having. Everytime I remember that he left me here last night, or he's in new mexico, or the loss of connection... I just lose it.
Does anyone go through this? Does anyone have advice, maybe a married couple? How do you get through this mental block, and enjoy self pleasure again when you just can't get there... It's so funny because I preach masturbation for a living! It just seems like it is disrupting my mood that I cannot enjoy pleasure when he is gone, and it's hard to get us connected during love-making lately. I don't want sex to just be SEX. There's more to it...
