Why are you nervous and doubting yourself?

I didn't identify as poly until I got into a relationship with a poly person. I don't know if it'll last forever, but for now it suits my lifestyle. I tend to still be a single girl other than my partner (he lives an hour and a half away and we don't see each other often, so I still feel single)

My girlfriend and I are actually considering looking for a girlfriend at the moment. There are definitely a lot of things to consider if you decide to go down this road.

I keep having dreams that we both are attend sex party and go off separately. I'll tour the individual rooms and when I come back, she's kneeling on all fours in a dimly lit room with about 4 or 5 guys licking their chops. In another dream we are screwing separately side by side a member of the opposite sex. In yet another one I tie her to the four posts in the bed, blindfold her, and warm her up while either another man or woman enters the room and starts toying or screwing her. It's a turn on to think of that, definitely a fantasy I'd like to live out once.

I think I always have been... The idea of having one partner never really clicked or made sense to me and it seemed unfair to try when I invariably feel for other people at the same time.

I realized I was poly about a year ago. I had tried a few poly relationships in my early dating years, and then I was in an open relationship for 2 years. After that ended and I started dating again, I tried a poly relationship and it worked for me. But now I am currently in an open relationship again.

about a 1 1/2 yrs ago i started to think that maybe i dont want to be tied down to 1 person. yes i have someone else in mind