I'm not sure where else in the forum it'd be more appropriate to post this, so I'm putting it here, but feel free to suggest a better spot. I'll first give some background to explain the context...
I'm a guy in my mid 20's, ivy league educated, thin and fit. I try to develop myself, to be cultured and refined, and don't find the thought of sitting on a sofa with guys watching sports and drinking beer particularly appealing. I consider myself masculine but gentle. I'm saying this just because what I'm about to write would have otherwise been uncharacteristic of me. A year and a half ago I was stick thin, 5'10 and 130 pounds. I started weight lifting to put on some muscle mass and fortunately got up to 150 pounds. I stopped again for two months before starting graduate school this semester, and just resumed a month and a half ago. The testosterone increase can be felt though. For about a month I'd have interesting mood swings ranging from wanting to have vicious rough sex with something, to hours later feeling lonely and just wanting to hold someone. They've settled down, but a little over a week ago I woke up in the middle of the night, face down in bed, my cock so hard it hurt from pressing down into the bed, and my head was filled with the most vivid fantasy of just having to ravish a girl. I was exhausted, but couldn't get back to sleep without getting this out of my head, so I opened my laptop and in my half-asleep state began typing out what was in my head. I was eager to just get it down in text so I wouldn't forget it, so most of it was just in notes and unorganized sentences. I decided to flush it out, and convey what I was actually feeling at that moment. So here it is... (I have to put it in multiple posts because of the character limit)
I'm a guy in my mid 20's, ivy league educated, thin and fit. I try to develop myself, to be cultured and refined, and don't find the thought of sitting on a sofa with guys watching sports and drinking beer particularly appealing. I consider myself masculine but gentle. I'm saying this just because what I'm about to write would have otherwise been uncharacteristic of me. A year and a half ago I was stick thin, 5'10 and 130 pounds. I started weight lifting to put on some muscle mass and fortunately got up to 150 pounds. I stopped again for two months before starting graduate school this semester, and just resumed a month and a half ago. The testosterone increase can be felt though. For about a month I'd have interesting mood swings ranging from wanting to have vicious rough sex with something, to hours later feeling lonely and just wanting to hold someone. They've settled down, but a little over a week ago I woke up in the middle of the night, face down in bed, my cock so hard it hurt from pressing down into the bed, and my head was filled with the most vivid fantasy of just having to ravish a girl. I was exhausted, but couldn't get back to sleep without getting this out of my head, so I opened my laptop and in my half-asleep state began typing out what was in my head. I was eager to just get it down in text so I wouldn't forget it, so most of it was just in notes and unorganized sentences. I decided to flush it out, and convey what I was actually feeling at that moment. So here it is... (I have to put it in multiple posts because of the character limit)