Oh don't think of it like that, Tori. *hug* Plenty of us here are in similar situations and the only thing to count on is that things change. You don't feel good now but that doesn't mean that you'll always feel that way. And love and happiness don't have age restrictions. I very much believe it will happen for you if you don't close off to the possibilities. less

Aw, honey. I feel so sad that you are feeling so hopeless.

There is a life after him. I know it doesn't feel like it right now, but as he has emotional issues that prevent you from being together, I know you know people simply don't change enough for this to be a reality. I'm so so sorry.

Sweetie, have you looked into some short term therapy to help you get your life back on track? Being depressed and lonely is hard enough, but a good therapy will not only help you feel better, but will help you understand why it has to be this way and help you cognitively understand that things eventually will get better. You know this, but bringing the knowledge from your rational thinking into your emotional feeling may require some outside help.

My thoughts are with you. less

Aw, honey. I feel so sad that you are feeling so hopeless.

There is a life after him. I know it doesn't feel like it right now, but as he has emotional issues that prevent you from being together, I know you know people simply don't change enough for this to be a reality. I'm so so sorry.

Sweetie, have you looked into some short term therapy to help you get your life back on track? Being depressed and lonely is hard enough, but a good therapy will not only help you feel better, but will help you understand why it has to be this way and help you cognitively understand that things eventually will get better. You know this, but bringing the knowledge from your rational thinking into your emotional feeling may require some outside help.

My thoughts are with you. less

Thanks P'Gell. I've actually been in therapy through most of this and it just wasn't making any real difference. I am apparently well equipped to move on, am appropriately adjusted, but just can't right now. I was basically told that I know and understand everything I need to and that time is really the only thing that will make a difference now, and keeping myself busy and active and social. I do my best but when there really is no guarantee of anyone/anything else, I just can't wrap my head around it. I never believed there was a 'one' until I met him and I can't see there being anyone else. less

So as many of you know, I ended things with my boyfriend of 2 years back in March/April. I couldn't really see my way out of it at the time and ended up back with him for a short time in June, and then we split again (same reason - his life is just too complicated and he has too many personal/mental health issues to be with me...or anyone) for the entire summer. I spent 7 or 8 weeks without him and really wasn't doing better. I can't seem to see how it's possible that I'm going to find anyone I'm compatible with as I was with him and that I'm as happy with. We got back together for 2 or 3 weeks and then, yup! Over again. Except this time it's done - things have been said that can't be taken back and he's finally come to the realization that he's just not a strong enough man to be with anyone, and won't be anytime soon.

So here I am, alone (as I have been for the majority of the last 6 months), without hope, and without the future we had planned together. I ended a marriage prior to this and had no problem seeing a life without him and happiness down the road. But I feel like this man really was the one, he was the best fit for me I'd ever found in every way, and I just can't see the light at the end of the tunnel here. It seems that my two choices now are to be alone for good or settle for someone and always look back on him. Has anyone felt this way before, like there is simply no hope for them, and had it turn around? The bottom line is he can't be with me and I deserve someone that would've fought harder for me anyway. But he was wonderfully submissive and kinky, had all the same interests, was my physical ideal, made me feel absolutely beautiful, and was my best friend. What are the chances I'll ever find anything close to that again?

I'm also creeping up on 30 which makes this even more stressful - it just seems like it's over for me. less

So as many of you know, I ended things with my boyfriend of 2 years back in March/April. I couldn't really see my way out of it at the time and ended up back with him for a short time in June, and then we split again (same reason - his life is just too complicated and he has too many personal/mental health issues to be with me...or anyone) for the entire summer. I spent 7 or 8 weeks without him and really wasn't doing better. I can't seem to see how it's possible that I'm going to find anyone I'm compatible with as I was with him and that I'm as happy with. We got back together for 2 or 3 weeks and then, yup! Over again. Except this time it's done - things have been said that can't be taken back and he's finally come to the realization that he's just not a strong enough man to be with anyone, and won't be anytime soon.

So here I am, alone (as I have been for the majority of the last 6 months), without hope, and without the future we had planned together. I ended a marriage prior to this and had no problem seeing a life without him and happiness down the road. But I feel like this man really was the one, he was the best fit for me I'd ever found in every way, and I just can't see the light at the end of the tunnel here. It seems that my two choices now are to be alone for good or settle for someone and always look back on him. Has anyone felt this way before, like there is simply no hope for them, and had it turn around? The bottom line is he can't be with me and I deserve someone that would've fought harder for me anyway. But he was wonderfully submissive and kinky, had all the same interests, was my physical ideal, made me feel absolutely beautiful, and was my best friend. What are the chances I'll ever find anything close to that again?

I'm also creeping up on 30 which makes this even more stressful - it just seems like it's over for me. less

So as many of you know, I ended things with my boyfriend of 2 years back in March/April. I couldn't really see my way out of it at the time and ended up back with him for a short time in June, and then we split again (same reason - his life is just too complicated and he has too many personal/mental health issues to be with me...or anyone) for the entire summer. I spent 7 or 8 weeks without him and really wasn't doing better. I can't seem to see how it's possible that I'm going to find anyone I'm compatible with as I was with him and that I'm as happy with. We got back together for 2 or 3 weeks and then, yup! Over again. Except this time it's done - things have been said that can't be taken back and he's finally come to the realization that he's just not a strong enough man to be with anyone, and won't be anytime soon.

So here I am, alone (as I have been for the majority of the last 6 months), without hope, and without the future we had planned together. I ended a marriage prior to this and had no problem seeing a life without him and happiness down the road. But I feel like this man really was the one, he was the best fit for me I'd ever found in every way, and I just can't see the light at the end of the tunnel here. It seems that my two choices now are to be alone for good or settle for someone and always look back on him. Has anyone felt this way before, like there is simply no hope for them, and had it turn around? The bottom line is he can't be with me and I deserve someone that would've fought harder for me anyway. But he was wonderfully submissive and kinky, had all the same interests, was my physical ideal, made me feel absolutely beautiful, and was my best friend. What are the chances I'll ever find anything close to that again?

I'm also creeping up on 30 which makes this even more stressful - it just seems like it's over for me. less