i know this is stupid but could you?

I am really sorry if i affended anoyone. i really ddint want to do this but me and my boyfreind have been having problems and i really wanted to make things better for us so i agreed to go see whomever he wanted me too. i am going to let him read what you all have to say. about this not being good for me. it just feels like i was being pulled in all directions to do this. i have never gone to a therapist before i told them (therapist) that i hated the idea and she told me that i would that this whole process was to take me out of my comfort level that it was going to make me feel worse ebfore it made me feel better. i think after reading what you all have to say i will look for someone else. this was not a fun or happy thing i wanted to do. but i really appreciate everyone being nice and again im sorry if i made anyone mad. my boyfreind was pushing to listen to the doctor. less

I am really sorry if i affended anoyone. i really ddint want to do this but me and my boyfreind have been having problems and i really wanted to make things better for us so i agreed to go see whomever he wanted me too. i am going to let him read what you all have to say. about this not being good for me. it just feels like i was being pulled in all directions to do this. i have never gone to a therapist before i told them (therapist) that i hated the idea and she told me that i would that this whole process was to take me out of my comfort level that it was going to make me feel worse ebfore it made me feel better. i think after reading what you all have to say i will look for someone else. this was not a fun or happy thing i wanted to do. but i really appreciate everyone being nice and again im sorry if i made anyone mad. my boyfreind was pushing to listen to the doctor. less

I am really sorry if i affended anoyone. i really ddint want to do this but me and my boyfreind have been having problems and i really wanted to make things better for us so i agreed to go see whomever he wanted me too. i am going to let him read what you all have to say. about this not being good for me. it just feels like i was being pulled in all directions to do this. i have never gone to a therapist before i told them (therapist) that i hated the idea and she told me that i would that this whole process was to take me out of my comfort level that it was going to make me feel worse ebfore it made me feel better. i think after reading what you all have to say i will look for someone else. this was not a fun or happy thing i wanted to do. but i really appreciate everyone being nice and again im sorry if i made anyone mad. my boyfreind was pushing to listen to the doctor. less

i went to see her tuesday (doctor)after i showed my Boyfreind what you all had to say. he told me he was really sorry he said he just wanted to help me. so me and im talked about it and we went to go see that doctor. i wrote down the link to this thread and gave it to her. and i told her i wouldnt be going back to see her. she was pretty anoyed and asked me why i told her to go have a look at this thread and seh said"so you did do it?" i said "yes unfortuanatly i did" and she said"well i bet everyone on that site who looked had nothing but wonderful things to say abouit you and i bet that made you feel wonderful didnt it?" and i said "no it made me feel like sh!t and the most immature person in the world" and she said "no i think it made a big smile on your face AND im also betting that youll be coming back to see me" snd i said "i am sorry but your wrong" and i left. her assistant in the front room called me over and handed me my appointment card of whichi took and then tossed into the garbage on the way out the door. im sure the girl at the front desk gave me a look. i feel much better like a weigt lifted off from me now that i know my bf isnt pressureing me. and i really appreciate evryones insigt thank you if i hadnt come on here i probably would still have been going to her. so i guess i can thank her for somthing. but now i am not quite sure where to go simply becuase that was a pretty bad experience for me not sure i want to deal with doctors like that ne more. less

i went to see her tuesday (doctor)after i showed my Boyfreind what you all had to say. he told me he was really sorry he said he just wanted to help me. so me and im talked about it and we went to go see that doctor. i wrote down the link to this thread and gave it to her. and i told her i wouldnt be going back to see her. she was pretty anoyed and asked me why i told her to go have a look at this thread and seh said"so you did do it?" i said "yes unfortuanatly i did" and she said"well i bet everyone on that site who looked had nothing but wonderful things to say abouit you and i bet that made you feel wonderful didnt it?" and i said "no it made me feel like sh!t and the most immature person in the world" and she said "no i think it made a big smile on your face AND im also betting that youll be coming back to see me" snd i said "i am sorry but your wrong" and i left. her assistant in the front room called me over and handed me my appointment card of whichi took and then tossed into the garbage on the way out the door. im sure the girl at the front desk gave me a look. i feel much better like a weigt lifted off from me now that i know my bf isnt pressureing me. and i really appreciate evryones insigt thank you if i hadnt come on here i probably would still have been going to her. so i guess i can thank her for somthing. but now i am not quite sure where to go simply becuase that was a pretty bad experience for me not sure i want to deal with doctors like that ne more. less

i went to see her tuesday (doctor)after i showed my Boyfreind what you all had to say. he told me he was really sorry he said he just wanted to help me. so me and im talked about it and we went to go see that doctor. i wrote down the link to this thread and gave it to her. and i told her i wouldnt be going back to see her. she was pretty anoyed and asked me why i told her to go have a look at this thread and seh said"so you did do it?" i said "yes unfortuanatly i did" and she said"well i bet everyone on that site who looked had nothing but wonderful things to say abouit you and i bet that made you feel wonderful didnt it?" and i said "no it made me feel like sh!t and the most immature person in the world" and she said "no i think it made a big smile on your face AND im also betting that youll be coming back to see me" snd i said "i am sorry but your wrong" and i left. her assistant in the front room called me over and handed me my appointment card of whichi took and then tossed into the garbage on the way out the door. im sure the girl at the front desk gave me a look. i feel much better like a weigt lifted off from me now that i know my bf isnt pressureing me. and i really appreciate evryones insigt thank you if i hadnt come on here i probably would still have been going to her. so i guess i can thank her for somthing. but now i am not quite sure where to go simply becuase that was a pretty bad experience for me not sure i want to deal with doctors like that ne more. less

Thank you for the update. I am glad that you stood up to her - that is a step forward in the right direction. Not every therapist is good, and not every one is bad - you need a psychologist, and your partner may help you find one. But do not allow your partner to force you into it if you do not want to start with a new psychologist.

The reason why it was good that you did that is because it shows that you are growing a spine and becoming more able to stand up to people. That is one of the things that will put you on your way to becoming more comfortable in who you are and more happy, too.

Look around in your area, and have first appointments. Discuss with them. Get to know them. And then see which one you think is best for you and will help you to get on the right track.

Almost everyone here on the thread has basically said that they are willing to have you contact them. That includes me. I was harsh, and upfront in my previous posts - for a reason. If you need someone to talk to, perhaps to help you build up your self-esteem, or see where the root of your problems are or how to change them, I am willing to have you contact me. less

I appreciate evryones offers to talk with me but i would feel quite ashamed begging for help. i mean with a therapist im paying them to listen to me so it isnt much of a bother to them cause they are getting paid. i really dont like to push myself onto people whic is part of the reason i ididnt wanna post th8is to begin with. i have been pretty much living a secret life till i got with my boyfrined and even then it wasnt untill 3 years into te relationship. and even now my bf biggest complaint is that i keep things a secret less

If people are offering to talk with you privately, please believe that they genuinely do want to listen to you. You have nothing to be embarrassed about - no one here is perfect, no one here has a perfect life. Let us be a place for you to come and just be yourself. The people who expressed compassion for you in this thread sincerely mean well and you should not feel bad at all about accepting an offer to talk.

We're a community here, we help each other out. less