I'm not exactly sure what I identify as, as I've never really experimented at all, but I do know that I am attracted to women as well as men. I've always known that and I think I was very young when I got a crush on Lara Croft from the playstation games. My family definitely thinks there's something iffy about my orientation, that I'm not straight as an arrow, because they've all out asked me if I was a lesbian. I'm not, though, and my dad and brother and my grandma are all very bigoted in my opinion by the things they say. It drives me nuts when they say things, thinking I'm most likely at least partially what they're talking about, and we get in huge fights about how is anyone being gay any of their business and what does it hurt them if gay people get married, etc?
Anyway, I just don't know what my dad would think of me if I told him I'm bi (or something). We have such a strained relationship as it is, I don't really want to strain it any more. At least, not while I'm living at home.
My mom, she'd be A-okay with it because she's one of those 'everyone's a little bit gay' people. I think that's great
Too bad she married a close minded jerk
But, yeah. I don't plan on coming out until it seems right or I get a girlfriend, whichever happens first. I don't think it'd be healthy to be in a secret relationship and, if they didn't want to come out that they were with me, I'd wonder if they were as committed as myself and if that's a relationship I really want to invest in.
