First of all, sorry in advance if this post is rambling/doesn't make sense. It's nearly 3 am, and for some odd reason I'm still up. Anyway.....I have come to the conclusion that getting married was a big mistake on my part. I thought if a man made a lifelong commitment to me it would be the answer to my emptiness (I have been diagnosed and suffered from clinical depression for years) but being trapped in a marriage with someone I'm not in love with has only ADDED to my problems. Don't get me wrong-I'm not saying I don't care about him. I may even have feelings for him enough that would be considered "love." But one thing's for sure-I'm not happy, and I don't see any light at the end of the tunnel. I know that I am completely responsible for this because I knew going into it that there were several things I didn't like about the relationship, including a couple that can never be changed. I don't want to go into details about what those "things" are, because I've already said too much and I'm sure I'll be berated-as I already have been by my mother-for going ahead with the marriage when it wasn't fair to him OR me. Trust me, I feel guilty enough already. I'm not looking for a pat on the back either, just venting here I guess. I have no one to talk to-my mom is sick of hearing about it, and I have literally no friends-my last friend dropped me a few months ago, over something stupid (not related to my relationship woes.)
So anyway, I am strongly considering filing for annulment. I want to avoid having the D-word (divorce) on my record at all costs. We've only been married since April, and have lived together only a short part of that time. There is also an immigration issue involved with this-I am not able to file for him as I had thought I would be due to the fact that I didn't work/earn enough to file taxes in 2010. (Before anyone jumps the gun, no, it was not a contract marriage, we had/have a legitimate relationship.) So I am thinking I have a pretty good case to file for annulment. Does anyone have experience with this?
So anyway, I am strongly considering filing for annulment. I want to avoid having the D-word (divorce) on my record at all costs. We've only been married since April, and have lived together only a short part of that time. There is also an immigration issue involved with this-I am not able to file for him as I had thought I would be due to the fact that I didn't work/earn enough to file taxes in 2010. (Before anyone jumps the gun, no, it was not a contract marriage, we had/have a legitimate relationship.) So I am thinking I have a pretty good case to file for annulment. Does anyone have experience with this?
