I've found someone who's really amazing and means a lot to me and turns me on to a ridiculous degree, and I wasn't expecting it at all seeing as I met him online. ( I don't normally allow myself to fall into that shit anymore. ) But alas, it's happened, and it might sound weird, but I'm actually happy with it. I'd rather get off from him than go out and pursue other people, because no one else really turns me on, and I just really feel safe and happy when I talk to him. We've talked about meeting up and such, but it's not as practical as it seems.
I've tried to give this up, and I thought it was a good idea, but it turns out I really want to pursue this in some way, at least to the point where we get to meet up and see what we think of each other in person.
I guess I'm ridiculously horny in the waiting process, and I don't think anything helps if he's not available... >_> I don't have a terribly strong drive to masturbate unless I'm talking to him. Is this even healthy? @_@ And when I get horny and he's not there, it's like, I can't quite 'get it up' enough without actually having him typing to me or something, so I don't do anything about it.
It's just kinda frustrating. While having a massively active sex drive is nice, it feels funny that I don't have interest in pursuing people. (There aren't really rules for us, as 1. we're long distance, 2. I'm polyamorous, 3. we've simply agreed to tell each other everything that happens/do what makes us happy.) I still have no interest in it,and it used to be all I ever did.
Gosh, it's really complicated, but I guess the short of it is, I might be waiting for months or years before we get really serious together, but I can't let go of the opportunity, and I have no real interest in others right now even though it'd be okay by our rules, and it all feels weird, what should I do?
I've tried to give this up, and I thought it was a good idea, but it turns out I really want to pursue this in some way, at least to the point where we get to meet up and see what we think of each other in person.
I guess I'm ridiculously horny in the waiting process, and I don't think anything helps if he's not available... >_> I don't have a terribly strong drive to masturbate unless I'm talking to him. Is this even healthy? @_@ And when I get horny and he's not there, it's like, I can't quite 'get it up' enough without actually having him typing to me or something, so I don't do anything about it.
It's just kinda frustrating. While having a massively active sex drive is nice, it feels funny that I don't have interest in pursuing people. (There aren't really rules for us, as 1. we're long distance, 2. I'm polyamorous, 3. we've simply agreed to tell each other everything that happens/do what makes us happy.) I still have no interest in it,and it used to be all I ever did.
Gosh, it's really complicated, but I guess the short of it is, I might be waiting for months or years before we get really serious together, but I can't let go of the opportunity, and I have no real interest in others right now even though it'd be okay by our rules, and it all feels weird, what should I do?
