I Feel Like My Life Is OVER

Okay, so I would never be able to admit this anywhere else but here on Eden.... I have HPV, I've known for a while and it has not really effected my life at all because I haven't been sexually active... but just recently within the last 3-4 months, warts have popped up and it's just getting worse and worse.

I feel so nasty and dirty and scared now... I've had a good cry just trying to type this out, I just don't know what to do anymore. I don't really know what I'm looking for here either... maybe I just want somebody to tell me it's going to be okay? Is there anything I can do about it?

I'm sorry if this sounds like unorganized babbling... I just get really emotional every time I try to type up this post. less

I'm so sorry that you're going through this. I went through a similar mental breakdown after a man I slept with told me he might have Herpes (he did not find out until after we had slept together because his previously girlfriend alerted him that she had the disease). I've since been tested multiple times (and I had previously had the HPV shot) and I did not get the disease. But when he told me that, I swear, I felt like throwing in the towel and becoming a monk. It was horrifying. But once my head cleared, I realized that there are thousands of other people who also have HPV and they manage to get through it. Just make sure you take care of it as best you can (and see a doctor regularly) and that you take responsibility not to pass it on to other people.

I wish you so much luck! less

Okay, so I would never be able to admit this anywhere else but here on Eden.... I have HPV, I've known for a while and it has not really effected my life at all because I haven't been sexually active... but just recently within the last 3-4 months, warts have popped up and it's just getting worse and worse.

I feel so nasty and dirty and scared now... I've had a good cry just trying to type this out, I just don't know what to do anymore. I don't really know what I'm looking for here either... maybe I just want somebody to tell me it's going to be okay? Is there anything I can do about it?

I'm sorry if this sounds like unorganized babbling... I just get really emotional every time I try to type up this post. less

I want to thank everyone for your words of encouragement. After I woke up this morning, I signed on and read all of your responses plus some that were in my inbox. I immediately called the clinic and went straight there. They gave me some cream and I got a pap done.

I am so glad I got up the courage to post this and I cannot thank you guys enough. I finally feel relief and it feels great! less

I want to thank everyone for your words of encouragement. After I woke up this morning, I signed on and read all of your responses plus some that were in my inbox. I immediately called the clinic and went straight there. They gave me some cream and I got a pap done.

I am so glad I got up the courage to post this and I cannot thank you guys enough. I finally feel relief and it feels great! less

I want to thank everyone for your words of encouragement. After I woke up this morning, I signed on and read all of your responses plus some that were in my inbox. I immediately called the clinic and went straight there. They gave me some cream and I got a pap done.

I am so glad I got up the courage to post this and I cannot thank you guys enough. I finally feel relief and it feels great! less

First of all - there are enough people in the world who will judge and condemn anyone for something like this. Don't beat yourself up over it because there is so much more to your life than this.

I found a website that might help you (for when the doctor isn't handy if you have more questions develop, etc).

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I will be adding you to my prayer list - as much for physical help as for peace of mind.

I don't know you - but I don't think you're a horrible person. I think sometimes life is made up of the things that happen TO us and it sounds like that is what happened.

I am glad that you called the clinic.

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I want to thank everyone for your words of encouragement. After I woke up this morning, I signed on and read all of your responses plus some that were in my inbox. I immediately called the clinic and went straight there. They gave me some cream and I got a pap done.

I am so glad I got up the courage to post this and I cannot thank you guys enough. I finally feel relief and it feels great! less

I'm very sorry to hear about this The bad part about HPV is that you can end up with the warts (as you've described). The good part is, as long as you go in for regular screenings, often that is the worst you'll get. HPV is what is known as the "common cold" of STDs.

You do need to be careful and warn future partners, when it comes to it, which I know can be incredibly hard as I had a friend years ago who went through this, but learning more about HPV yourself and then being able to explain to them that it's not the worst thing in the world to have, will make it easier (hopefully).

I would recommend regular screenings so that they may check to make sure you don't show any abnormal cells. Cervical cancer and others similar is one of the GREATEST risks of having HPV, but if you are monitored, and they watch the cells closely you CAN be treated BEFORE it turns into cancer. But you NEED to get checked in order to do that.

It can be scary hearing you have something like that when it isn't talked about often, but you can get help! And there are tons of support groups, and I'm sure I can speak for just about anyone on here, if you ever need advice or someone to talk to, we are also here for you!

As for the warts, sometimes they go away on their own but I would still get checked in general for cells. And, perhaps they can help you with that issue as well!

Just remember...you may not be able to get rid of the HPV, but all of the bad things that can happen because of it CAN be treated less