My story about my first love affair.

This is my diary, my life, my story. I'm Natalia Starr. I live in New York, I'm 24, Puerto Rican and Egyptian, single and confused about my sexuality but I'm going towards bisexual. For many years I have been stressing myself trying to figure out how I feel towards a man and a woman. I'm attracted to both equally. I can't call myself straight because if I see a girl I get wet, and I can't call myself lesbian because I love being around a guy. I have had plenty of girlfriends and plenty of boyfriends but I can't seem to just choose one. I like to have both.

I have been talking to this girl name Lydmar who is 23, Brazilian, single and also bisexual that I really do like. You could say I'm falling for her. Lydmar has exotic features to her: long black hair, green/hazel eyes, big luscious lips and a great body. The sex is amazing. Lydmar has a future ahead of her; she's going to college to become a nurse, but I didn't meet her at her college. When I first met her, she was an exotic dancer named Jordyn. I wanted to know her and why she was doing this. She did it to pay for her school. We kept talking and getting to know each other better and got together. Things didn't work out as planned so we decided to wait a little, but we still do have sex. We are not dating. We are taking things slow.

When I'm not with Lydmar, I'm at the mall working. Lydmar decided to take a 3 week vacation back to Brazil to visit her family, but I couldn't go. So I had to stay. The first couple of days were tortured, until I fell for someone new. His name is Anthony. He's 22, Dominican and Jamaican, recently single, and just moved to New York from Florida to work on his career. We started talking as soon as he walked into Footlocker. He was looking for a new pair of Jordan's. I saw how cute he was so I went to help him out. We ended up exchanging numbers and names. He offered to take me out after work. So after work I went home, took a shower, and changed into some thing sexy yet classy.

He picked me up from my apartment and took me out to dinner and a movie. Honestly I don't remember what the movie was about because I was too busy kissing him. By the time the movie finished, I was ready for my dessert. I just wanted to take him home with me and fuck him and show him how much a freak I am. But he had to go to a meeting the next day so he took me home, kissed me goodbye and left.

I waited for him to call me. I didn't want to sound desperate but I really was. I needed some dick in my life. The phone rang. It's Lydmar calling and she tells me she will be in Brazil for another week. I missed her but then again I still have Anthony. About two hours later my door bell rang. I answered it to find out that it's Anthony. I couldn't wait anymore. He was making me tingle and wet. I was so horny I couldn't handle it anymore.

As soon as Anthony walked in, I kissed him and pulled him to the bedroom. I laid him down and started taking his clothes off. I pounced on top of him and started grinding on him. The look in his eyes told me he wanted me. I took my handcuffs and cuffed him to the bed. He was loving that. I stripped for him and went down south and starting working on his dick, then I came back up and sat on his face and made him eat me out. Oh how I loved the feeling. I never felt this before. It's a different feeling when Lydmar does it. I then moved and shifted my vagina to his penis and I start bouncing on it. I love when he moans and curls his toes. It shows me that I'm doing it right. After another 15 minutes, I uncuffed him and took him with me to take a shower and had sex with him again.

I came out first so that I could start on dinner. When I came out of the shower, Lydmar was standing there crying. I was in shock. She told me she was going to be there for another week. I had to explain to her what she just heard and why it happened. We waited till Anthony came out so they could both hear the truth. I cooked them dinner and told them what was going on. Anthony understood, but Lydmar was still upset. I told them that I had feeling for both of them and I didn't want to lose either of them.

We decided to talk it out and made an agreement. We all became lovers because they both didn't want to lose me either, so they had to find a way to love each other. Now I finally found what I was looking for in myself. It was there all along. Even till this day we are still dating. Anthony and Lydmar love each other and we have threesomes every other day. We want to get married soon and start a family. Now I know and I'm proud to be bisexual.