My libido returned w/ such a fury, seething, about 3 1/2 years ago after quite a few years of absence. The last orgasm I'd had was about 1 1/2 years prior to that time. Oh mama, I was awakened while sleeping, alone, w/ a spontaneous orgasm. There's nothing like those orgasms! Wish I had them more often! Any sexual pleasure or orgasms before that, I have no memory of, & w/ good reason - yeah, lots of 'stuff' behind that.
Sex w/ a guy wasn't an option at that time when my body came back alive sexually, so I turned to toys. Long story short, my previous toy experiences had been less than ok, to say the least. But despite that, I started internet searching about them, & w/i weeks, ordered a few toys so much way beyond better than my earlier toy experiences produced. And my exploration into toys this time gave me the sexual pleasure & satisfaction I needed & still do need since I don't have a lover.
I have used lots of different types of toys, not anal or BDSM, though. And I've progressed from simple toys to more advanced in function & style. I have learned so much about my body & the types of stimulation that offer varying levels of pleasure, or not. And ever since I found e-stim, OMGawd!!!!! EF doesn't carry e-stim toys, although, I have found one toy that was discontinued - bummer.
I have shared bits my toy exploration w/ just a few people. It's not something they feel comfortable talking about. So, I 'out' myself anonymously on the internet. I think my libido & tour of toys are ok whether considered 'normal' or not. Others judgements about my sexual needs are irrelevant. It's my body & my life. And I'm so, so, so very happy I've found these delightful cohorts.