i so agree with this. You never know what will happen. I always say what I feel. That may be bad cause I always feel as if I am rude..

See that's what I was thinking too. I mean, we all know that we're going to die eventually and when given the question "if you only had a month left", most people would say "I'd live it to the fullest". I feel like I should be doing that every day. Life is short, know what I mean?

I'm pretty big on living every day... I don't live everyday like it is my last day and I don't want to think about that, but I do pretty good about living every day happily and without ANY regrets. I don't regret things, I choose to learn from my mistakes. BUT there is one thing I COULD regret and that's waiting to say things like how I feel until it is too late. My mom told me something once about regrets and not regretting what you say, but regretting what you never got the nerves up TO say. I have learned a lot ever since she told me that and I do my best to speak things that I want my loved ones to know. Something about it really stuck with me because I don't EVER miss my chance to say those important things. For me, I would regret not telling my loved ones how much they mean to me all the time and not letting them know exactly what I love so much about each of them. So I've made a point to do it. It sounds cheesy, but I never go a single day without telling the kids that they are beautiful and that I love them. My neices have never gone a day without hearing those words from my mouth and I don't ever want them to. My parents, partner, sister and all the kids never go a day without hearing I love you. And for my grandparents, when I talk to them, I ALWAYS say I love you and you are precious to me.

So I guess the most important things in my life truly are my loved ones. A big part of me is all about making them happy. I would change things if I didn't think I'd live longer. I would go out and do crazy things instead of missing the chance. Like for instance running in the fields all over the mountain I live on. I always want to just stop driving, get out of the car and run! That thought comes to me each evening when it's really pretty out like today and I'm driving home. If I didn't think I'd live longer, I'd stop and damnit I'd run through that field! LOL. I would go do some of the things I really want like scuba dive ,swim with dolphins, see a snow owl. I would go spend the night in the Gordon Lee Mansion and all those things I've always wanted to do and plan to.

Still, the most important thing would be that my family and loved ones know exactly how I feel about them. I've even written down in a notebook, for each person I love, just how I feel about them. I get scared when I think of dying and these people not knowing just how I thought of them. Occasionally, when I have time, I keep a few special notes jotted down in my notebook. I'm a writer so everything gets jotted down. If someone were to read my years and years worth of notebooks, they'd think I'm crazy because little story ideas get jotted down along with everything. But when something special has happened, like when my dad and I have or special moments, I write down what it meant to me. See, throughout my teen years I kept my notebooks for writing the bad things. Writing is kind of therapeutic for me so when I was ever upset, I'd write it. Once my partner was reading one of my notebooks and thought I was crazy. So I decided that it was OK to write the bad since it was a release for me, but that I should also focus on writing the good. Now I have even more notebooks of damn feelings! LOL. But, if I ever died, I have told my partner that I wanted him to read my good notebooks and share everything I've written with everyone of my loved ones. I don't think they could ever comprehend just what they mean to me.

Long story! LOL. Sorry about that. It is interesting to read what everyone says. I'm still really young and passionate about everything under the sun. I still feel like I can take on the world and am eager to do everything I have ever wanted. In my mind, none of the things I want to ever accomplish or do, no matter how unrealistic, seem impossible to me. I don't think I'll ever be that person that simply gives up and turns old and says to the grandkids "I always wanted to do this and that, but well, I'm too old." I feel like I really will do it all. I mean, unless I die. I just don't feel like that passion and eagerness will ever just die in me personally.

THIS. I totally agree with the "last day may be closer than we think." My family, parnter and I are Christian and we discuss quite often how the end times are closing in on us. Not to upset anyone who doesn't believe this way, but I am just saying this is our own beliefs. I think since we do talk about how we don't have a whole lot of time left, it really helps us to live every day a bit more "fuller" than we might if we didn't regularly discuss it. I'm not ready for anything to be over though. I have so many plans! But I agree, I want to be every bit prepared.

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I know exactly what you mean. I just hope that it's not down to my last days before I really do live life as if it's my last.