Im terribly embarassed 2 share this but i dont no of anywhere else i can say this without being judged 4 my sexual acts. i figure on this site i should be pretty safe lol.

so ive been trying 2 learn 2 orgasm through my prostate recently and i think ive gotten really close but i usually lose it at the last second or something. today i got up on my sink counter and squatted down in front of the mirror so i wouldnt cum all over the bed or something and then i lubed up both hands and started 2 really agressively massage my prostate. whenever 1 hand tired i put the other finger in and went 2 town agian. it felt GREAT and i was startin 2 have trouble breathin and stuff because of how powerful it was.

but when i finally felt myself cross that line i kid you not i peed! it wasnt precum or cum. i straight up pissed in the sink. i could smell it and it was a fairly long pee 2. i was so disappointed and i felt like id fucked up badly. its a good thing my girlfrend didnt do this with me. id never have felt like a man again.

worse, even though i made sure to poop long before i started playing there was a lot more shit than i thogyht there would be. it was all over my fingers and i could feel my ass pulsing during the massage almost like my body wanted to take another shit. i was clean and empty when i put my fingers in. i dont know why a few minutes later i was so messy.

this is horribly fuckin embarrasin but i need sum help or advice r somethin PLEASE. i feel like i shoud never touch my prostate again no matter how good it felt before i screwed everything up somehow. damnit.